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Saturday, May 31, 2008, 7:53 PM

"Work" by kelly rowland is WACKY.
hah. im super not going to think about it again =D
ahh, nadira's all over nuts . dont be sad. i feel for you dearest! gosh. dont worry i bet shes okay =] cheer up .

Esther and i are the daughters of Queen macbeth

Amanda ; Can go online?

Esther ; HAHA. mg sorry just woke up. still need me?

Amanda ; Nah, i'll talk to you later. gonna play sims

Esther ; OMG LOLL. I WAS LIKE ADDICTED TO IT 24/7!! HAHA and i was building a perfect family! --censored--

Amanda ; What kinD OF RELATIONSHIPS>.
Esther ; I shant reply.

HUHH!???
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT

Amanda ; Wanna play sims ?

Esther; HAHAAH nah im fine

I remembered we wanted to make S.N and kill her. bahhahaahhahahah. --censored--

Amanda ; you give me great ideas

Esther ; Lets make real life pple sims

Amanda ; Great first on i will make is __________

Esther ; and ____

Amanda ; YES! we will make _____ and _____love each other

Esther ; THat is so wronnggg

Amanda ; but so right for them.

Esther ; heh okay go make ur enemies i shall eat my yummy breakfast by the lord. god bless

Amanda ; God bless us all

we are sim iddiots.




Friday, May 30, 2008, 10:00 PM

Oh you think its really funny..its very funny to make me so frustrated.let others be your listening ear and leave me alone Because im only your friend now and i'll always be i stopped short afew months ago
And forget about what i said
I dont have time for your murmuring
Tell them to her
go clean with her
It doesnt concern me at all
if youre bored
go listen to replays
go watch re runs
go crap in the toilet.

I've had quite enuf of your shit rubbish




1:09 PM

gramma is here.
sheeeeeesh. shes pissed. can tell X] wooow, some one better keep quiet or all heads will roll.
shhhhhhhh.

Daddy bought cossacks 2.
and thru the tutorial i played and i died.
pfpffffttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.
im not a good commander.
i'll probably lead the squad of soldiers straight into some trap hole. and poof.
buh bye. the whole country crashes down. tsktsk.
I can never be napolean <== is that even how you spell it?
anyway, i can aspire to be him but my game will crash before i realise my dream.
heeeeh. so much for being crazy over computer games.

Oh, and did i mention i killed off all of my sims.?
haha, my sim had a romance aspiration so i got all his girlfriends into the pool,
go into build mode and deleted off the steps to the pool and switch back to the live mode.
so they dont have steps to get out of the pool
so need i say more? haha, im not sadistic.
im just trying out something new. something that no one would do. =]

My next move is im gonna try and finish off never winter nights and dungeon siege before i bug my dad to haunt for a new game.
When i grow up, and earn my own money, im gonna buy the whole sims collection .
ooh.in the middle of the hols im gonna quit kal [which i already did] and join cabal.
im gonna be a a a a a a a a a aa a a a aa............. MAGICIAN =]
or maybe a archer. but the magician is temmpting . heh.
i'll never play maple story. ew.




Wednesday, May 28, 2008, 10:09 PM

Things that make me sad. now.


Its really sad when youre wishes dont come true.
in any case, has any of my wishes ever come true before?
no. trivial ones. only.

Its really sad to watch something being taken away.
And you can do nothing about it.
except to, shut up.

Its really sad to hide,
when you dont want to

Its really sad when you want to tell a friend to ," stop"
but you dont know how to do it in a tactful way,
or bring yourself to do so.

Its really sad to be left out.

Its really sad
when sad things make you sad
and your sad being cant make things right
cos youre already too sad.




6:23 PM

Aladin

-**Rachel Lee ma’am
-Tan Pei Wen ma’am
-Dang Ngoc Linh ma’am
-*Danielle Gozali
- Ivana Wongso
-Chloe Pang
-Ng Wen Qian
-Kang Su-Lin
-Farisha Salma
-Piramol K Krishnan

Beauty and the Beast

-**Nur Shafwaty ma’am
-Victoria Heng ma’am
-Deborah Ong ma’am
-Lin Liang ma’am
-*Lim Qian Yi
-Pham Thu Hang
-Deborah Tan JY
-Ruth Lee
-Nurul Marsya
-Lee Rui

Cinderella

-**Stacy Chong ma’am
-Farah Atiqah ma’am
-Lynn Tan ma’am
-Yasmine Rimbun ma’am
-*Michelle Hoh
-Ngyuen Ngoc Tram Anh
-Deborah Tan YC
-Mabel Seah
-Nur Diyana
-Victoria Tang

Dumbo

-**Pearlyn Ee ma’am
-Liang Pei Jung ma’am
-Han Yu ma’am
-Nguyen Quynh Mai ma’am
-*Ng Wai Lam
-Dione Chen
-Siti Sarah
-Amanda Koh
-Maryam Bte Kamarudin
-Charlotte Nam


Emperor’s New Groove

-**Sarah Tan ma’am
-Pham Minh Hang ma’am
-Hoang Bao Ngoc ma’am
-*Ong Zi Ying
-Wiwik Karlina
-Faeqa Fizla
-Wong Jia Ping
-Seah Yi Ling
-Fiona Chan
-Amanda Loh

Fantasia

-**Crystal Beck ma’am
-Irene ma’am
-Pham Minh Trang ma’am
-*Xu Yan Bing
-Amirinazeb a/o Aurangzeb
- Charissa Pek
-Claire Tan
-Sarah Wong
-Amanda Soo
-Nadira Mohamad Refeek

Goofy movie

-**Nurul Azidah ma’am
-Shirelle Ng ma’am
-Le Thuy Linh ma’am
-*Gilda Giam
-Ta Minh Trang
-Evanne Kok
-Linda Mulyani
-Chew Wei Li
-Mary Lim
-Khoo Zi Wei

Hercules

-**Sarah Cheong ma’am
-Ita Dwi Lestari ma’am
-Sherin Tan ma’am
-*Yeo Jing Rui
-Carolyn Lim
-Isabel Han
-Jacqueline Tan
-Pang Guet Ghee
-Nur Aisyah

YAY! IM WITH NADIRA! i think im gonna love this. june camp here i come!




4:46 PM

PEI YING GAMES DAY WAS SUPER FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
SO yeah. i was kinda like frigging out cos i didnt know how to go home from pei ying.
but my very nice, aisyah, nadira, wenqian, marsya showed me the way/
thanks=] THe kids in pei ying are. rude.
but nevertheless, they didnt ruin my day. I WONT LET THEM! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHHAHHAHAHAHHAAH.
THere are some pics i took. so i'll post them later.
Me and wenqian were suppose to be the game masters for "Bola tin".
aisyah just so happened to put us there cos she claims that i was fierce.
and so was wenqian? i guess. so yeah . that game could have been chaotic so she had us to control it. haha. tell me if i shud be honoured? wink*
um. but SADLY. we didnt get to play it in the end...... We were in charge of grup five, "pick up sticks."
difference between "bola tin" ----"pick up sticks".
is real big.
but ... =/
But it was still cool. me and wenqian divided our grup into two cos our grup was too big.
HEY. WEN QIAN! NO FAIR! for the second grup she gave me the one with more boys.
ah. harder to handle. tsktsk. there was this indian boy.. haha, really very mature. much better then the rest. he was easier to handle. but there was one lil guy, that i would just have loved to rip me hair out. sigh..... from all that teaching and coaching and calming them down.. even only for five min..... i think they just shortened my life by.. lemme see....5 years.
pick up sticks..... youre suppose to take turns to take the sticks right?
when there was a competition between wen qian and my grup... all the boys in my grup just started grabbing at the sticks and without even taking turns and totally ignoring the presence of the two, girl, red cross thailand members. i could feel my hair turning white.
i lift my hat off for the teachers teaching the primary schools.

we had a grup photo after that.
and the lunch that they provided us was delish man.
and i just realised something.
when i got out from the mrt switching to the LRT.
LAO SHI [mrs lee] WAS TAKING THE SAME ESCALATOR as me hading to the lrt.
when i saw her my mouth was just ...AGAPE
ahh. life is just so mysterious.
life is filled with suprises.
whats on next?




Tuesday, May 27, 2008, 6:52 PM

haha. this is a great role model for prefects.
On the day where my Sister had her PTD
my mum saw and heard a secondary prefect, ask 2 smaller girls very nicely, very gently [to what my mums eyes percieved.] if they needed help in what ever day were carrying. They declined the offer.
haha. i wonder who this person is....... winkwink.

anyway, I'm having a stomach ache. and im very excited for tmr.
I CAN GO FOR PEI YING GAMES DAY>.and for a moment i was psyching my head over the game i was incharged with.
garhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
its gonna be so fun. im gonna take LOADS of pics with my new cam. its gonna be so nice
im finally gonna seee my friends again. YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRHHHHHHHH
Life is finally not gonna be boring.
WEll. today i went to school to pick my sister up,
and i was just walking around aimlessly in school.holding/reading parts of "the giver"
i didnt realise that book was so interesting. tho the cover look looks awfully boring.
thats why they said, never judge a book by its cover. tsktsk.
So. walking around in school. walkwalk. my legs brought me to the redcross board. some silly asss unpinned the the stuff on the board and it was all on the floor. naughty. so i piined them allll back up. .
SO yeah. saw ruth and wwe chatted about stuff. then yeah i was so retarded.
i wanted to ask ami something. so i went up to ami. and i totally blanked out. and i was like.... what was i gonna ask her. i think faeqa and deborah tan yc thought i was nuts. sigh* there will never be a day where i stop embarresing my self eh? gosh. i apologise.





Monday, May 26, 2008, 9:58 PM

uh. esther. you got it all wrong so bad.
and remember what i said to you. remember.
and you owe me a present=]
Angela tagged! Miss you alot you know.. =[
Life's a drag. the next thing i have to worry on is how to get to pei ying. tsktsktsk
if my dad doesnt want to fetch me then how? how? how? any one? wanna be my chauffeur? sigh*

Are you too blind..too childish.
Are you submerged in self pity

You are the doctor
You chill the warm hearts, turn them to ice.
trying to warm them back, but you turn them into frost again
Are you trying to cause shock?

WHat is wrong with your fat head.
you play her round your finger.
twist and turn. mound.
please. stop it. STOPIT. ITS ****** PISSSING ME OFF.
DMAN YOU.




1:40 PM

Name 20 people

1]Esther AU
2]Marsya
3]Beverly
4]Ruying
5]Nadira
6]Diyana
7]Charlotte
8]Amirina
9]Ruth
10]Wenqian
11]RM [[ im copying marsya. its just so amusing]]
12]Shermaine [yes. . YOU . the 4GY one. =D]
13]Chloe
14]Xue Qi
15]Pearl Tay
16]Agatha
17]Abigail
18]Rebecca AU
19]Tracy
20]Trina

When did you meet no. 14?
Since, P1. she was P2. we were taking the same school bus.

What would you do if you didnt meet no.1?
Jump off my house

What if 9 and 20 dated?
Uh. thats obviously. NOT possible. considering the gender and the huge gap difference between personality. um.wait. it is a LIL bit possible. i mean... no one can predict eh? =X

Will 6 and 17 date?
NO.NEVER.YUCK. SICK.

Describe 3.
Quiet. not. Believes in god which is very much loved. NIce, Gentle[ not]. Prefect nom - a- neeee XD

Is 8 attractive?

YES. QUITE MUCH. winks*

Describe 7.
Playful. Play. Full. PLAYFUL. PLAYPLAY. UFFFFLL. hmph.

KNow any of 12's family members?
Uh. no. but i know that she has a bro =]

What will you do if 18 confesses that he/she likes you?
Uh. runnaway and hide behind esther.

What language does 15 speak?
Chinese and English

Who is 9 going out with at the moment?
UH. NO ONE.. i hope. cross fingers*

How old is 16?
13/14years

When was the last time you spoke to 13?
on Friday

If u could say something to 2, and he/she would do what u want them to do, what would it be?
Stay happy and shud there be any problem you are encountering . come to me first okay! huggeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Who is 2s fave band/ singer
DAVID COOK

If you could give 14 one character trait/appearance trait, what would it be?
I. dont.know. nice?

What would you do if 17 was gone
Please lah. life wouldnt be so cruel as to leave such a great friend dead for me to mourn.

if 6 was no longer your friend, what would you do?
get on with life . fine. if she doesnt accept my apology get on with life.
but i willll cry first. in the first place i wouldnt make her angry!

What would you do if 1 caught you while you were falling off a cliff and saved you?
show my greatest gratitude by buying all of green days merchandise.
for her.

Have you ever dated 4?
Good lord. no.

Would you ever date 1?
No. yyeuck.

Is 19 single?
uh. yes.

Whats 10's last name?
Ng

Would you ever be in a relationship with 11?
WHATT??! no. [amusing how this quiz can play interesting stuff]

What is the school of 3?
SCGS

Where does 6 live?
dunno

Whats your fav. thing about 5?
She's reall nice. and im damn happy i met her =]

Choose 6 people to do this quiz

Esther
Ruth
Wenqian
Beverly
Ruying
Amirina

This quiz is so cool. thanks marsh!




11:37 AM

can’t bite my tongue forever.
while you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories.
but don’t take me for a fool.
You can tell me that there’s nobody else.
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
, but I know
You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you
So don’t try to say you’re sorry,
or try to make it right
And don’t waste your breath because it’s too late,




Sunday, May 25, 2008, 11:42 AM

Looking at these pictures, they make me realise how much meaning there is to small little lives that bloom every morning. small lives, big hopes.





uh. no. not this. this is just one very cute pic i decided to put up. really. its nothing big.









Its just these flowers that i took that allow me to stare in amazement























AHAH. i muz be nuts. X.X





THis is just some pics i took at the botanic gardens

A huge marble.. sunbathingXD



Swan

i seem to love this tree alot

A statue of swans

Lake.




Saturday, May 24, 2008, 10:19 PM

I cut my self today=]
with a gingsu knife my dad sharpened 2 months ago=]
it was bleeding.
but it was a good experience=]

at least how much pain can i feel when im already feeling it.

I havent been blogging cos there wasnt anything to talk about.
but i was thinking a blog was not meant to be written only to be filled with interesting things
but to be writtten with whatever you want, what ever you like.

i must be going crazy.
what is wrong with me?
am i insecure in some way?
that no one can understand?
am i being really silly.

its no more a pocket full of sunshine
its turned into a living hell.




11:19 AM

THe retarTed picturees. requested.
oh my. my blog will be come some joke of a laughing stock.


Sigh.


Shan Chihh my new friend. the one in the middle.


Every gasp.


Super beverly. not.. maybe. who knows.


hmph.










The above pic ture is truely retarded beverly.







If i take pictures like that again i'll kill myself.








Amelia.






Need I say more.




Rachel is happy She's never had bev lean on her before. snigger*




Thursday, May 22, 2008, 7:06 PM




Oh. so many days i've not been posting.
My dad bot me a CAM! =] cheers!






Creative writing module was funnnn!! We learned how to express ourselves and become so poetic thru the inspiration in .....!!





Here are some pics





These are very nice scenaries i took.



omg. i just suddenly feel lazy. HAHA. another day i';ll post then
besides i have to do mpp file. XD buh bye




Monday, May 19, 2008, 8:03 PM

heeeeeh. omg.

/.\

=D

so its a mixed feelings of -->

ME

the equation is -->

/.\ + ;D =

the answer is -->

@.@
*===*

fd bronze.
-Before POC
-So Very Little Time.
-But im at the same time happy.
-Altho this time.. surprisingly. I am afraid.

What are we dimwits gonna do.
why are we born stupid
or am [[I]] the one that is DUMB.
And silly, and futuristic in the idiotic manner. thinking that we''d do great things

" you guys will. you people just need time. time is essential. love will be the best comfort and your strengths will be so great that it will overcome the greatest barriers that any can hold. Its only in the matter of what your squad believes. Believe in yourself. Love one
another."

That is what my other half speaks to me about.

-That there is HOPE.
-That no we wont fall again.
-That we will strive and hop on to the top

my other half adds on.

"hurrh. you mean that they will strive and hop on to the top MIRACULOUSLY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
their just idiots.
THey've let their seniors down countless times. its useless.
she's tried."

but i dont think i've tried hard enuf.
maybe if i did......

creative writing. you are so gonna hate me because im goonna write the
saddest poems. im gonna make them so sad that you have no choice but to kick
me out of the module and put me into something theraputhic like..

i dont know? likeilike. hell why the shsit should i even bother.

But what i do think that was happy today is that..
i went to daiso and bought my wardy stuff and my angel stuff.
nice wrapping bags.
=]

this is what im gonna write to my wardy on a card when i give her the stuff i bot on POC

" Dear wardy.
what a great hell of a mortal you are. fancy not writing back. your poor angel thought she wrote something evil in that letter cos you didnt reply! You made her worry for weeks! NAH! here's the stuff your NICE ANGEL bought for you!

CHEERS. not,
your crapped angel."

But no, i might seem LIKE that person that WOULD write that somewhat knowing that im vengeful and easy to get angered but im reasonable and i would dig to find out why my wardy didnt write back so i do now. and this is what im gonna write.

"Dear wardy.
=] how're you? I know your reason for not beeing able to write back=] no worries.
I hope you like the token of appreciation i bot for you. its for thanking you to be a great wardy!
i know youre probably thinking why i call you a great wardy when you didnt write back..its cos..
sometimes, things may seem ugly on the outside when everyone is just skimming the tip of everything. but when you dig deeper and find the reason why.... its actually not as bad as it seems. just like you had your reasons for not writing back=] youre a nice person and i can tell=]
im glad and thankful to have a wardy like you.

Amanda. "

I've yet to post that bimbo letter i wrote to myself.
wait on. i might think twice.


the rainbow brings a bag of smiles
right at the end of the bridge of colours
where there awaits my little pony
destined to bring me elsewhere





Saturday, May 17, 2008, 9:49 PM

Creative writing is on the 20 and 21
im looking forward to it=] really.
all the poem writing will keep me filled with lotsa thoughts
and i'll be so poetic. classic.

I'll just let my mind flow~
and write my words
Spill a creative mix
filll the pages with words of splendour~

They will bring us to the botanic gardens.
And i will write all about that glorious nature
the flowers that shimmer with brilliance from that morning dew
That glitter and fall to the ground like sparkling diamonds
Dew drops so sweet and cold
refreshes the inner mind
Smothers the burning fire in me
Smothers the ignant candle that's aflame.
But no its not icy cold
its kept abit of the burnin wood.
with a lil bit of a chill
warmth surrounds.

THAT is what i would write =]

awww its gonna be so fun=] im gonna take some pics yeah?

ooh. i got some pics of [SEC!s SCRCY]

below ; this one is ehhem. me. holding a can of nescafe.
well. um according to jacq i was EMOING.
im leaning on the fence. well actually im just staring at the pretty fishes.
um. venue is swami home.

below; jacq, me, charlotte

below; yes. the fantastic. US. XD

below; our hands..

We''ll work together, we'll sustain the love
We can never bond too much
we'll hold our hands forever

below; our foots XD

we stand, All as one
if we fall, we'll hold each up
we firmly stand our ground
and persevere till the end.
together


SCRCY!
TO LIVE BY HONOUR!
TO SERVE WITH PRIDE!




11:00 AM

If i miss another oh so happy outing i''ll make sure i kill myself.

i regret.




Friday, May 16, 2008, 9:52 PM

Come stop your crying, it'll be alright.
Just take my hand, hold it tight.
I will protect you, from all around you.
I will be here dont you cry.

For one so small you seem so strong
My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm.
This bond between us, can't be broken.
I will be here dont you cry.

Coz you''ll be in my heart.
Yes you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
now and forever more.

-phil collins




Thursday, May 15, 2008, 11:04 PM

so this is where i start recounting back what happened today.

chinese painting was great.
it reallly was great great great.
enjoyed it alot.
the instructor was nice because no matter how awful looking our woks of art were he just kept goiing "很好看！很好看！"
And that is good cos its much bettter then having instructors that go
"嗨。你画得不美。看我。你是不是不想画？画到这么乱！你没真心地做！"
he was very encouraging. seriously. great teacher.
we had a choice to draw pandas, and fruits and vege and fishes and others.
I kept drawing fishes, cos it was the simplest and i thought that...
since im first trying out. i shud start with something simple.
simplicity is probably the best.
the fishes looked elegant. =X

we drew on card board, caligraphy paper and a fan.
I drew fish fish fish.
haha.
I learned abit of the history on chinese painting.
i now know the

文房四宝
haha. go look it up the net if youre interested.
enuf about chinese painting.

im not going for pei ying games day.

swami home visit was great.
i felt happy when we helped.
it made me feel glad that i was giving back to society and i was helping others in need.
the old people were cute=]
i love old people. their so innocent and nice.

during the trip back to school i was like

"wtf. what is wrong with me"
and for the rest of the trip back home, alll i cared was to hide my face and start acting as if it
was the end of the world and FEEL as if everyone hated me or something and feel so sad and depressed.
I kinda miss that feeling, it makes me feel at peace on the outside and lonely on the outside but screaming with frustration inside. but i felt it today so i am happy. well at least i was a bit happy. that i was sad. haha. you think im crazy. okay i know. but youre not me so you dont know how i feel.
so shutup.

I really really dont like poc, it makes me so unhappy. it really makes me really unhappy.

im not going to say a single word.
because im tired of it.
Im tired trying to patch things up.
neither of you are trying
so why shoud i try.
when its NOT my problem.
because i just realised it IS gonna be MY PROBLEM.
soon enough.

i thank marsya for making me happy=]
very much appreciated




Wednesday, May 14, 2008, 10:09 PM

tmr is e learning day
tmr is swami home visit
tmr is enrichment module.
what the??

my module is Chinese painting and creative writing. [[poems]]
im looking forward to the second module cos their bring us to the botanic gardens!
weee and we can write in what ever way we want!
write and express.
we can create beautiful words of art.
=]
chinese painting. another one that is in need of creativity.
CREATIVITY, the essential start of a beautiful world.
a beautiful work.
a free way of expressing~

and i =--

good lord. i better stop before i lose control. sheesh.

BEVERLY CHEAH. WHAT TIME IS THE THING STARTING.
YOURE IN THE SAME MODULE AS ME. AND YOUD SAY YOUD SMS ME OR OFFLINE MSN ME. WAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
BEVBEVBEV.
D= YOU MAKE ME SO DEPRESSED.

im stuffing my face in cereal. and the cereal taste horrid. yuck. eww.
im gonna sink and emerce myself into great great great indulgence tmr.
with such a nice book like "the giver"
im sure i'll be able to kill time knowing that i think my enrich ment starts at 7 and i'll be there at.... what? 6 30.
30 mins to read the giver. and i call that great. know why?
BECAUSE IM DEAD ENUF.I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO CATCH UP ON THE WIND SINGER.
D= AND I DESPERATELY HAVE TO READ THE GIVER COS IF I DONT I CANT DO MY ELEARNING. NOT THAT INDULGING EH?
I should reward myself with a day where i'll just re read

the queen of bable
the queens soprano
the fairest
the dog that got killed in the night time

and read

the wind singer

and watch poignant movies like

the dead poets society
a&
billy elliot.

=] it'l be great. it'll just be a great day of reading and watching sad movies.
not sad but. hehh. poignant.

I hope my rc angel replies soon. i really do. in case i start thinking shes angry with me or something

now things that i have to get troubled over.

what my elearning hw is
and
the bag of gifts for my wardy .

wow. poc.
I HATE POC.
POC SUCKS.
CURSE POC.
>=d




Tuesday, May 13, 2008, 3:24 PM

I am in the com lab right now.
and esther is crapping beside me=]
SO AM I. HHAHAAHAHHAHAAHA.

not that im very happy. no.
I've not been recievin back letters so yeah.grrh.
um heeh.

lemme see what happened today. nothing.
papart from the fact that today there was a friggin math test. heeh.
not very funny. altho its the first time i can say..... I THINK I"LL PASS.
get a pass better then other math tests. relieved? why should you bother-.-

DEAR ZARA. is in denial. HAHAHAHHA. zarazara.wheeee. i'll have fun playing with you. =]
nothing beens very exciting and life is getting boringger[[not that there is such a word. who cares] everyday cos.... i wanna type them all out but i can't because.... arh. sheesh. forget it.

HURHHURH. HI MARY LIM!!!!! who is ehhem. sitting almost opposite me now.
"SO RANDOM!~" by essther.
"you spell my name wrongly!" by esthhhhher
"RETarted!~" by esher.

HAH. esherrrr. i still spell your name wrongly.. AHAHAHAHAH you cant stop me.!
my fingers give it the slip~
esher
esher
estee lauder.

anyway. omg what the heck??

me and esther went to re live the memories again.
went back to 4p. didnt really change much.,
the class room door was locked and inside the classroom,,, the floor..... was water. why eh?
then the bench was shifted. and i was yakking about the past to esther and she was using sthe monkey to cover her mouth.
bleh.
hey, i bought a monkey yesterday. and it had a tag pierced in its ear so i bot a earing stud.. blue aqua. it looks so cute now.

left ear. pierced. blue earing = gay monkey/.\
i never knew i got a ttracted to gay monkeys.

HAHAHHA. gtg. nothing much to write. and esther! i got something to talk to you about, =] something serious. and im not laughing/.\

oh no=[" by esther.

tough time.




Monday, May 12, 2008, 9:31 PM

When you have to look away, When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you . I love you just that way.

I love SCRCY sec ones. nah . you wont be able to understand how i feel cos youre not part of it.
envious? bet you are. >=]

I didnt talk much in school . hmm.. wow. i mean i was seriously terribly upset and i just didnt talk much. maybe just in class i ddidnt talk much.

i didnt see apoint

SCRCY sec ones are so perfect.
even if we are the trouble makers and we upset our dear ncos..
we are darlings... really. We dont really purposely make those mistakes.. we really dont.
We try you know. we do. we just sweat out real hard.
We dont care if we dont eat for recess. Putting up a good show is what we care about.
Not only putting up a good show just to butter people up, but we do it wholeheartedly
with no complains. We are more then happy to share our free time and use it all to perfect
in what ever we are doing. together as a team, we are one big family under one.. [[ruth]] ehhem
roof.

Together we strive to be the best, and we'll never stop encouraging each other.
Loving and caring for one another.
nothing can pull us apart. not even in the face of adversity


um. no. we are not looking forward to POC. trust me.
trust us.




Sunday, May 11, 2008, 7:16 PM

reply reply all those tags
those that are late i apologise
forgive my atrocity
for that i repent.

another short poem done in afew seconds.

Amanda; Tracy : thanks =] hahah. I DON’T LOOK NICE IN THE RC UNI. I LLOOOK LIKE A ASS. XD AND SEEEMS LIKE IM THE ONLY ONE.

Amanda; Karuna : hey! You tagged! =] nah. My poems are just crappy shit. Thanks anyway. Oh and don’t worry about it, anything you can come and talk to me okay? =] ILY too!

Amanda; dd : LOL

Amanda; Sopheeyah : Ily too=]

Amanda; Beverly : I love you too and no those words were not meant for your eyes.

Amanda; Nadira : No prob, I can teach you tmr again. If you want.

Amanda; Esther : hurrh. Im telling you no one will vote for me. No im not being modest its just sadly the plain truth.

Amanda; Marsh : heyy, thanks=] im okay=]

Amanda; Jacq : AHEM was meant to be what ever they discussed lol. Not a person. =] no youre not a pig. But you WERE born a pig. Every one in scrcy was born a big including me. Lil piggies lol. Omg. What am I typing?

Amanda; Ruth : heeh. No. =]




4:34 PM

It is when you dont understand a single thing that is happening and you start talk crap out of your mouth. Dude. shut up. youre being real silly and childish. and youre throwing tantrumz.

think before you speak. speak after you think.

POC is up soon.

in approximately..... 45 more days.
who de heck is looking forward to poc?
only physcos.
must treasure the time we have with the current ncos.
which is so little time.
so even if its just 3 sec. its still just worthwhile.

.seriously unimaginable.

Have you ever thought how much people change afew years later?
They're looks, they're smile, they're laugh, they're minds, they're life?
Everything changes.
Day by day.
From the seriousness of something to the cheerful laugh of a kid.
from a playful lad to a stern adult.
We were young before, immature and kiddish.
Now we think better, but we do bitch at times.
As we grow, our enviroment fits in and totally changes our way of living , or way of thinking, everything.
It seems as if nothing of the old stays.
It seems as if the old hatreds have taken their toll, and i can no more feel vengence.
For time has wiped out every bit of anger, revenge is not my name anymore.
I've forgotten everything. And im not sad to say I'll never remember it.
Because its time to turn the page and start writing on a fresh new , clean lined paper.
without the lines I have no guidance. So im still in need of people to put me in the right track.
And so far, you guys have done that. and im thankful.

I never thought I'd be happy again 5 months later.
I thought there was something wrong with me.

friends. i cant name you all. i cant. But i will try

Marysa*Diyana*Aisyah*Nadira*Maryam*Charlotte*Amanda loh*Esther Au* Beverly * Ru Ying * Tracy * 1PR*

And if i've missed out any. im sorry, but I'm sure i remember you for it. just. not now.
be patient. your name will appear.




Friday, May 09, 2008, 7:57 PM

Today was suprisingly...
not very nice.

Everything wasnt going as what i thought it would have.
I've done all i could.
I've tried to pull the group together altho i wasnt the grup leader.
I stayed up late just to do those.
no im not the only one that put in a 150% of hardwork.
Yes wee were still wrong.
as a group we shud have done this project earlier.
but your a friggin coward and a loser.
a silly person with no mind to think.

"but its so difficult... i cant do it."

do you think our work load is any easier?
Did we complain?
You didnt even do it properly.
you didnt even hand it up.
now you pull all of us down with you. are you glad?
___________________________________

Am i just irritating.
Am i just stupid
Am i just childish
Am i just a play doll
Am i just your toy
Am i just a fool that doesnt understand whats going on
Am I that hateful




7:45 PM

Some times words can describe things that mean alot.
The words that hurt and make you cry
The words that shatter you in life
But can these things be mended?


Poison leaking out from your mouth
Drip a thousand drops
kills every living heart
Leaves a thousand corpses

Dying on the temple pedestral
Incured ten thousand wraths
The time where happiness reigned everything else
And now the taste of a slow death

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

The night is calm as the river flows by
The glittering waters shimmer bright
Moonlight shines upon the dusky evening
The crickets chirp their song

The moon so perfect
the light it brings
Casts away the silent hours
The beautiful scene compliments the flowers




Thursday, May 08, 2008, 7:48 PM

Good lord.
wat a great day..

My rc angel has not rplied.
My angel not yet.
amirina not yet.

D= why is life becoming so sad.
D=

Im gonna forget about all the bad things that happened to day and think about the good ones.

so today was World Red Cross Day.

=] everything was grgrgrgrgreat.
Azidah ma'am seemed as if she was in a good mood today.
she didnt scold us at all. it was all very happy.

Rachel ma'am and azidah ma'am were talking about ...

ehhem.

So i shall not elaborate. Its a hush hush for all red cross members yeah?

Had evac test.
was ok.

had some promotion ceromony thing?
well, i was lucky. my name was called out by ahem.
so it was all very um..... nice and scary and freakky and happy.
I was flying when i recieved the certs and badges.
every sec one got the same too.
but it was all very cool.
I LOVE MY MATES.
EHHHHHEEHHH.
I bet i looked so funny when i was marching.
i felt like i was hit with a rock on the head.
but inside my head was heaven.
And my eyes could only see whirls of colours.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeee~

ah. okay. tmr. heeh.




Wednesday, May 07, 2008, 9:09 PM

Tomorrow is World Red Cross Day

THat means....
THe whole squad will stand infront of the school.
Shafwaty ma'am will command us.
Rachel ma'am will speak about Mr Jean henri dunant.
X.X
that means i have to wear my red cross uniform for the whole day.
i have a choice to change out.
but that is so trouble some.
but walking around in the uni the whold day is worse.
oh no.....

PW malacca is due on fri.
I dont get why im cleaning up everysingle project in every grup im in.
Is it my job?
So i have to do the proposal.
=] very great.
bravo.
and they just gotta do the poster.
why..... am i some sort of rubbish cleaner?

Evac test tmr. Evac test tmr.

my angel replied with a nice long letter. and that.
I am happy.
i left before ami could post the letter up
and my rc angel has not replied. yet/

Another poem

When you do all that work
others just sleep their days away
They get the credit
I have the price to pay

When All you want is someone to say you are the best friend they could ever meet
THere is no one to be that person
Every one is blinded and no one can see
They leave my heart to burn

Life is a scary road to run
Life is a hard road to walk
Pebbles and stones, you fall on that path
A fall no one can dodge or block




Tuesday, May 06, 2008, 9:31 PM

=]
amirina replied.
=]
I shall await for my 2pr angel
=[
Im waiting impatiently for my rc angels letter but i got to try.

I was feeling bored today and my angel is studying alot
so i made a wire bronze coloured star structure for her.
its smaller then the size of a palm.
and its heavy
and it bronze.
i hope she likes it.
because i dont think she will cos my "artistic work" isnt really THAT good

=[ nevertheless i still hope she likes it.
today was the eoeh oral presentation.
it was scary.
and freakky
and i squatted on the floor.
so mrs fern was like ... "AManda! why you squat"
-.-




Monday, May 05, 2008, 6:44 PM

=]

today was. okay.

oh gosh. the housekeeper? maid? domestic helper?
ah. domestic helper is probably the right word to use.

she is so wierd. she is obedient but lazy at the same time.
she doesnt have anything to do.. so called doesnt have anything to do.. she would sit out in the balcony and start scratching her arm with a coin.
plain disgusting i tell you. she scratch untill red.
i dontknow whats wrong with her. =X

uh. my rc angel has not replied. which is she made me feel so emo today cos she didnt reply meh. =[
amirina replied which is fantastic.
my 2pr angel... hah, i shall wait patiently. intently.
tomorrow is a geog test.
which is so bad cos i have the eoeh to finish up.
and it is tmr cos the silly grups had such short presentation slides that
3 grups.... zoomed fast enuf in 50 minutes to be finished.
good lord praise us all.

Beverly is packed with tennis.
so that means that i have to do this myself.
im not complaining cos i knew RIGHT from the start it would end up on someday where we would have to rush cos we were totally blur RIGHT from the start cos wee didnt know what to do. -.-




Sunday, May 04, 2008, 11:09 AM

you guys effing suck.

you have no idea how childish you two freaks are.
you guys are plain morons.
at blaiming at each other.
all you know how to do is defend.

defend and put the blame.
you guys have no brains.

i guess thats just a given.




Saturday, May 03, 2008, 9:22 PM

ahahahhahhhahha.

the bimbo things i did today.

I was eating sushi cos mum had brought home some for Bpp after parent teacher dialogue.
then AHAHAHHAHAHAH....
I accidentally used the bok that contained the sushi and swiped it against the cup and the cups lid fell into the plate of vege with gravy.
HAHAHA. sheesh. im so careless.

THen my sister was talking about george washington.
and im lke asking my dad what happened to him.
my dad was like "he's dead. he's history."
and im like "HUH?? when di d he die? he was still alive a while ago right? how come i dont know?"

he is like putting on that look saying "aww you dumb freak thats george BUSH."
AHAHAHAHHAH,
i ought to read more so i wont get mixed up
there is qute a bg diff betweeeen the first president and the present 2o something one. ahah.
ohoh and one last bimbo thing,
after ptd we went to eat breakfast at maxwell food court.
my mom was buying the food and i went to look for a chair to sit.....
i found this chair and i was so afraid it was dirty i took my tissue out to clean it.
DX. and the aunties and uncles were staring at me.
im in my uniform
that makes things plusplus worse.
i bet theyre thinking....

"wah shit, this girl seems too high class for our society".

nono, im just mere ly cleaning the chair!
it was dirty!
and i didnt want to dirty my uniform!
hmph.




Friday, May 02, 2008, 8:54 PM

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DX

I FELL IN FRONT OF DEBORAH MA"AM.
AW SHUCKS. em-bar-ess-ing.
Oh My Shit i am so not gonna

forgive
your duppeddd
bag
BEVERLY CHEAH.
yes. your beautiful name.
and your dupeed bag.

bleh. darn.
my rc angel has not replied me.
amirina, replying me. soon
2pr angel not yet.\

gahhhhhhhh. .....
dont feel like wriiting