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Sunday, June 29, 2008, 10:12 PM
omg. so much worki suddenly hate school
Saturday, June 28, 2008, 8:55 PM
RIght.i hate it thoroughly when there is no school.
because no friends means boooring.
no redcross-talk-and-mess-around IS boooooring.
no crapping with beverly and ru ying is boring.
no poking fun is boooring.
no oh-so desperately trying not to sleep during class is booooring.
=(
and plus. there is nothing to post.
except talk about how boring it is.
what is all the talk about god.
"i love god"
you say.
or is it all for show.
the odd thing about you is, if you love god so much, why do you not act like one of his children
You play your role differently. What do you want from this.
what do you want from everything you do.
why act. and preach what you dont do.
why be a hypocrite.
if i am bad as a person.
good lord what are you.
a selfish
incouriggable
despo
psychotic
critical
idiot.
i've got 200 more for you.
too bad i dont think my blog can take it.
because it'll be too diritied.
Friday, June 27, 2008, 9:36 PM
Today startedoff unhappily.i met nadira first. so we got a swing and sat down.
all the while we were talking about evac and how we couldnt believe it.
yeah then maryam, marysa and diyana came along and everything got more exciting. and sad.
but i said "lets go to the board"
marysa ==> "there can be miracles!"
amanda and marsya "WHEN YOU BELIEVE."
man we believed.
I dont understand why i filled my playlist with christian songs all of the sudden.
yeah okay we were squealing.
and pearlyn ma'am came out and asked what the commotion was about.
and she looked at us and said "oh."
i guess she knew.
Those who didnt pass cant give up okay!
you cant! presevere. there are no failures!
its just the starting of the procedure of you yourself scoring!
falling is only part of your near success!
so yeah. went back to class. i saw the board and i was like going "oh shiit".
"those groups that havent done their skit for the 4 values will do them today during CE"
=/ gosh. i stoned.
then i waited for a good long time for beverly to get into class then stared at her real hard.
beverly "why you staring at me like that."
amanda" we have to do the skit for ce today."
beverly"you do have the right to stare at me like that."
i think she couldnt catch her breath.
after that was lang arts. aww man was it scary.
mrs fernandez was booming at those that didnt hand in their report.
i put my report under bev's folder=D
beverly handed hers in a pocket folder.
and mrs fern said she couldnt hand it up like that so i gave her my file that was used to
contain the notes for my module. =D
so yeh. she was very angry. as in seriously.
lets all forget about it yeah? and learn from the mistake.
After that was physics. goodness. my eyes were almost closing. tsktsk. terrible.
every since the first day before school, i started feeling sleepy.
its only 10.45 now and my eyes feel like their gonna shut soon.
um. after a while the board was only filled with
zeros, ones, decimal points. squareroots. my mind was in a whirl.
during break we had a feast of cakes and cookies. with seven up and pepsi
thanks mrs mukherji =D
mrs tan held us back by 10 min cos we went there 10 min late.
had recess with mates.
i didnt eat. cos i had really tummy aches. <== at least i thought i ate something wrong but it turned out to be something else.
and i didnt eat the ice cream . Moo looked so poorthing when she carried one whole big box of icecream to the table saying that PR didnt want it. sad man. haha! i was busy outlining my pablo picasso drawing =D
i had to walk to the primary school courtyard and pause and hold on for a while before i could move again. thankgod i had charlotte and amanda with me ! it hurt so much! =( really. i felt like i was having really bad food poisoning. blame myself for not bringing panadol >=/
and so i thought we were late... others were even laterrr.
borrowed bevys art set and begun painting the warm side of my painting. i was so into it! i felt so happy while painting. i forgot everything. then mrs chia said afew time that mine was nice =D
charlottes one too! =D she said that we'd get a token! whippie!
went back for ce.
was trembling in fear.
i changed the whole skit to make it much easier. altho i think it was rather last minute but no point crying over spilt milk so it went like this.
scene one.
me "DONATE BLOOD> PLEASE! GOT TO THE SINGAPORE BLOOK BANK.!"
vicky, rachel bev. "we want to donate blood."
me. "its all about COURAGE."
scene two.
bev: i would like to donate these clothes to the salvation army.
rachel : of course!
me : its all about how SINCERE you are and GENEROSITY
scene three
vicky: we are going to the old folks home to clean up the place=D
me, bev, rachel : yeah!
-reacch there-
bev pick up mop and wipe the floor.
i pick litter.
rachel sweep floor
vicky hold dustpan.
i pause and stop
"and last but not least. service."
yup. thats how its gonna go. =D its short and very simple but its better then nothing.
inthe end both form teachers didnt come for the whole period. why ah? =?
rule.
never ever drink
-half a can of pepsi
-a gulp of seven up
when you have a period cramps.
or it'll get seriously bad.
worse.
terrible.
UNBEARABLE. >=/
trust me.
i learn from experience.
I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord you catch me when I'm falling, And you told me who I am. I am yours.
casting crowns, who am i
Strength will rise as we wait upon the LordWe will wait upon the LordWe will wait upon the LordStrength will rise as we wait upon the LordWe will wait upon the LordWe will wait upon the LordOur God, You reign foreverOur hope, our Strong DelivererYou are the everlasting GodThe everlasting GodYou do not faintYou won't grow wearyYou're the defender of the weakYou comfort those in needYou lift us up on wings like eagles
-chris tomlin ,everlasting god.
My savior loves, my savior livesMy savior's always there for meMy God he was, my God he isMy God he's always gonna be
-aaron shust, my saviour my god.
Thursday, June 26, 2008, 7:24 PM
This is plain dumb.we failed again.
oh my. will we ever.
I have only one word for you.
stupidity.
I get it. You like her. she likes her too. calm down.
there is no competition at all. you can say you like her but you'll never get her.
so chill it. Dont say im jealous.
because every person out there can't stand your remarks.
Youre getting really out of hand.
==
With every day that passes. With every minute that ticks.
All the words you mouth sound like white noise.
I can't understand what youre saying. literally and sarcastically.
man you dont learn do you.
face it. believe it. change it if you want.
dont live everyday in your own world of fiction and shirk from reality.
Change your reality if you dont like it.
but youre not doing anything.
youre lying in every move you make,
every word you say.
Sure. im a bad person.
im a bad person
im a bad person
im a bad person for saying all this.
Oh but if we ask a whole group of pple
youre the bad person.
I mean we have nothing to say if youre sorry
and you would do something about your life.
but youre not. dont say we didnt open the door.
we are trying so hard to open it.
but the door is jammed, its left in a position that is almost closed but still open.
youre a great person you say
youre fictional "close friends" tell you otherwise.
we try so hard.
but youre not trying.
so we wont try.
because we''ll waste our time if we do.
cos you'll never try.
11:14 AM
gosh. computer studieshad recess with marsya, charlotte and ru ying. dear ru just appeared out of nowhere right beside our table . =D
oh no! i just wahacked charlotte's chin in a fit of asking her to surf her own com! =( sorry!
it was an accident..... snnigger*
today beverly made me laugh like i didnt.
mrs chia was telling us about her scuba diving thing.
she went with her husband to the maldives.
she was telling us about the belt that they had to wear fitted in with lead.
so that they could sink. then she said something about this inflatable life jacket.
if you inflate it you will float up wards.
if you release the air you will sink.
i just went "ITS ROCKING MY WORLD.!" while listening to check yes juliet
and ruying is looking at me as if im mad and laughing . -.-
as i was saying.
yeah. so i told bev,.
if i see a shark. or stingray. i will iimmediate ly press the inflate button! and shoot up to the surface.
and she said
I KNOW. you press the wrong button. then you shoot up annd then shoot down again cos your vest inflate and let out air.
i was then thinking -->beverly seeing me shoot up and down as the helpless amanda with the very "what the hell is happening" kind of face and my arms waving about.
at this time. beverly and i just couldnt stop laughing. =D
oh and something about the sniorkling thing. that if i go to deep into the water.
i breathe in the water.
O.O
=( i cant believe we all actually are that hopeless. me and nadira couldnt believe
no body could.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008, 6:44 PM
Thankgoodness today was better then ytd. It made me quite happy let me relate i saw esthers eyebrows. at first when you take a first look you cant really see but if you go closer, you can see it! its like arched now at the side =)Today me , nadira and marsya were alking in the peranakan garden i saw this ball thing
which we thought was a fruit and picked it up.
indeed it was a fruit. its not the exact words.
nadira "put it down! it might be poinsonous"
haha! i dont think so lah! <==me i have an idea.
buzzing sound -this part is censored- ran to ruth. wanted to do something, but she already turned around so toolate.
then i was like, RUTH. put out your hand =D
she was in a rush for her interview.
with her bag slung on already then she put her hand out.
and i put the fruit in her hand.
and we childish sec ones start gigglint to ourself while our poor senior is staring at what is in her hand, struggling, tryin to figure what in the world it is.
then she was like "you want me to throw it?"
i was like "nah! just wanted to show it to you. i throw. go for your interview."
so she gave it back to me and she ran. then i was like "GOOD LUCKKKK!~" and i bet the whole canteen could hear me .
whoops =X so after she went.
i had that fruit in hand. i was standing like 2, 3 metres away from the dustbin and i was gonna aim.
either marsya or nadira said i couldnt.
HAH. i proved you wrong! it was like some basketball thing the dustbin was the net.
so i threw it. ...................
,.....
.......
..........
the fruit hit the lid of the dustbin and it popped right in!
haha! i can finally reassure myself i can throw.
tmr is my interview for the prefect thing.
someone scream for me.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008, 7:18 PM
gosh. like why does everyone have a attitude problem.Yesterday , first day of school was superb
bev and i were all high upon seeing each other. haha.
i am now, putting a strawberry biscuit stick, and biting off from one end
to the other.
Yesterday after recess, i came up the stairs, i saw mr lau
dear mr lau, stared at me. and stared at the toilet.
at first there was no smell.
the enemy was in hiding.
He was holding a container of peas, they looked black and green.
he was like "you". i was like "me?" "yes you".
i walked towards him,
no smell.
"Take this container, pou --"
me --> "OMG WHATS THAT SMELL! "
"IS IT WHAT YOURE HOLDING???"
mr lau rolls his eyes, "yes it is indeed what im holding. "
!!!!!!!!
me ==> "IS IT ROTTON PEAS?? " trying so hard to hold my breath*
mr lau ==> "YES ITS PEAS. ROTTON. DECAYING ONES. now go into the toilet, pour all this into the toilet bowl. rinse it with water then give it to me."
I grab that container, holding my breath, i could tell you i bet my face was going green.
pour that eecky stuff into that toilet bowl, flush the toilet. runn to the sink and rinse the container with water.
aww man i only dared take a sniff only when i was in the class room.
the smell of that rotton peas could kill.
that was yesterday.
how do i relate today?
how come i cant tell everyone how i truly feel
and i have to hide it.
thats really unfair.
why im being stupid, isnt life suppose to be unfair anyway,
anyhow.
Sunday, June 22, 2008, 4:23 PM
mi corazón está vacío,
hacer las cosas tienen que resultar así.
tiempo vuela demasiado rápido,
todo se ha ido
Con cada vez que pasa,
y cada sentimiento puesto de manifiesto i cant parecen pasar,
y sólo quiero permanecer,
aquí
10:40 AM
School tmr. am i looking forward to it? kind of. ignoring the fact that i have to finish my hw.My june hols were some how different.
It wasnt like that typical "sit infront of your com and rot" thing.
it s more like, "which days do i have to go back to school" and "scramble to finish hw" kind of thing.
I've always been going back to school much more often then usual in this month.
So i guess it wont be so hard for me to blend in on the first day tmr trying to familiarize and get used to this whole environment called SCHOOL. =D
I just realised that its the place i love most.
because its where i can be myself and where my friends are.
i rmb when i was so attached to red cross and school..
in the car i was like wailing and screaming saying "get me outta the car"
half way on the exxpress way i was like wailing and wailing .
X\ that seemed like just yesterday.
time passes so fast dont you think. Its like the first day of school was just one week ago.
and youre here, six months later.
haha. i rmb i was really naughty in primary 2.
i wouldnt do my home work. and i would go round asking people
"can you be my friend please?"
i even ate in class... tsktsk.
i hated maths. it was the year that i hated maths. alot. alot.
because i hated that teacher! but i guess it was my fault because i wont do my hw. and i wont do my corrections =( man was i horrible.
Primary three was roughly the same. i loved my form teacher. i wasnt exactly that naughty.
Primary four was not the same. sure i got into a lovely cca (choir) and i was still as naughty, (i didnt do my chinese hw. the chinese teacher that was in charge of choir even threatened to kick me out of choir! i was INCORRIGABLE>.< Primary 4 was also very traumatic for me. i had alot of of "break ups" with a grup of friends and life was like just going to school and awaiting another quarrel with them. life was really just saddening. but it isnt bad cos i met dear esther!
Primary 5. was even worse. i went tthru a huge change, because my class hated me alot and i hated them back so i would sit at the back of my class alone with no partner. and keep to myself. thats when i started writing poems and sad ones. i just kept writing and writing and so developed a love for writing.. i was really quiet. and i learned to put on this very stern face and very serious personality. everyday was just crycrycrycry. but after awhile i thought that enuf was enuf and if anyone stepped on my tail i would pounce back fast. so if you see my awful "you are so goonna die face" i learned it there and then in that year! =) i can be nice. if you are. me and esther had a really embarresssing moment and ruth! ah! dont start! so thats when i started to know ruth and it was just the first step getting closer to RED CROSS =D i started to know bev better and we gradually became good friends=)
Primary 6 was with the same class. i started to slack abit just a lil. everytime i talk to ruth there would be a grup of friends that showed up with her. i cant remember who but i think it was some of the current sec two red cross seniors! haha! isnt that just plain cool. =D PSLE was a torture. but my sudden love for wuzun and hana kimi sort of like pushed me on and made me work harder cos my mum would buy me those magazines..... with HIS FACE ON IT. HAH!
Secondary. Secondary. ONE.
man am i glad those pple that used to bully me in p5 and all are gone, what a relieve. i get new friends i get a great class i get a super great cca what more can i simply just ask for.
i dont understand why i started to relate almost my whole school life. i guess i just can forget the past. Those many many parts.
Saturday, June 21, 2008, 12:45 PM
i woke up.my eyes were all puffy and swollen.we can seem to wish for things.but they can't come true. Reality & the truth are things that we run away from. its only when we sleep, when we enter into a world of the unknown. when we enter into an unconscious mind, where we forget about everything that happens in the real fact. in the real world. its when you can be happy. I see everyone crying.
I know everyone is crying
Their words they type
Friday, June 20, 2008, 11:39 PM
we learn as we live each day. with the little things that happenand those disapointments. they hurt, but they had lessons embedded in them.
The triumph we felt when we achieved what we wanted.
we earned what we reaped but we continued learning.
Redcross, was not a wrong choice.
i know i covered my ears and blocked out those voices,
the words that seemed to make red cross sound like it was bad.
they were so opiniated and were just a heap of rubbish.
i know so, i believe so.
I can finally say,
If i try, i wont drag my feet for a good more than one month.
Stress. time management. i can finally plan now.
the new, fresh and useful knowledge of :
First aid
Evacuation
Footdrill
RCV.
the ability to eat quite fast =D
i wont forget this --> Perseverance.
the magic of bonding.
six months.
six months.
six months.
six months.
six months.
six months.
I've changed. but with out the
help of the sec twos
the understanding sec threes
and the ma'ams as my role models.
i would have changed? no. not a single bit.
Poc is coming soon.
every body will be a standard higher.
Thankyou ma'ams. with out your guidance, we will not be what we sec ones are today.
You have taught us really well.
thankyou so much.
Thursday, June 19, 2008, 9:36 PM
HAHA! june camp was super awesome!i was so happy!
and it wasnt as scary as i thought it was.
except that i could kill myself for putting my pe shirt in the wrong ziploc.
"smack head."
well! everything was really great! and i cant find the words to describe it!
oh. news flash.
i think i' wont tell you like now.
just read on first.! =)
DAY ONE.
-morning, i/c reporting for the start of camp. before-
i freak. i freak. freak.freak. =(. im so stupid to freak.
hah! everything was so scary. we were so frantic. every one came with alot of stuff.
like verylittle people came with haversacks. haha! i felt so odd. almost every one came with duffel bags. =) and i just realised, good sleeping bags are huge ones. not so good sleeping bags are small ones. i have a smal one. no wonder it was so difficult to sleep on the first night. but i guess, it was also cos i was not used to it and it was rather hot cos we were wearing track pants.=)
We sec ones had theory bronze foot drill. we were like so scared! but we did awesome! =) i passed! and everyone tried and that s the best part =D The food was nice! the packet drinks were awesome! i know it sounds wierd but i like food. XD. we had the barbecue. and the sec ones were feeling so guilty cos our seniors were doing all the food and were stressing out and we sec ones just ate! i mean. that s plain nice for them to do so and so mean of us to just eat. my stomach was churning when i ate the food. but i didnt feel so bad after that cos i helped pack up and neaten up the barbecue place and wash some stuff. thanks ncos and seniors.
bathing was hilarious. and very quick. i didn tactually shampoo my head properly. but who cares! it was so fun! trying to beat the time limit =D after that was night walk and my grup had to look for ma'ams. haha! funny! one person scream and run. everybody scream and run! hahaa!!!!! and last but not least i couldnt sleep.
Second day.
aisyah was trying to flirt with me. haha! sorry aisyah. first time didnt work but second time i could feel it man. well done. claps* hah! we went on a hike at the macritchie reservoir. it was a great experience and i ended up quite tired so on the end journey back to school i slept =). The hike really bonded us together cos we had the will to continue and we persevered! =) after that, there was lunch. i love lunch . i love food. i love dinner! anyway, we went to somewhere in china town to help old folks that lived in one room flats clean their house. oh yes, i was with yanbing and a scholar ma'am! we worked very,very hard! i was scrubbing at the floor with my hanky, tough work! i felt so pleased when i felt that the floor was no more dusty and they were quite clean. everyone helped and we were with two saint margs girls. shafiqah and elizabeth =D they were super =) so yeah, we helped and at the end of the day we help for a good cause. oh, and yanbing is afraid of lizardS! there was this chute in the house and yanbing had to throw something, then this lizard popped up in the chute and yanbing was squealing and squirming! haha!!!!!!! poorthing!
-THIRD DAY-
good lord. we overslept. haha! but it was a GREATT! experience! =Dat least we learn from the lesson. haha!
after that was PT. we ran :
out of school;
cross the road(holding up cars);
pass the bus stop;
up the over head bridge;
to malcom park.
=D
it was nice cos in the morning when you sweat it all out,after that you feel energised. altho almost everyones legs hurt alot before and after the run =)
breakfast was bread with jam or nutella and a cup of ovaltine. =D i ate two nutella breads. yanbing ate 8. poor yanbing! haha! but i lift my hat off for you. thats is just cool man.
we had a recre thing and i was not playing properly.. now im not gonna tell you why.
we did the friendship dance! =D
we sec ones had Foot drill. and we had footdrill bronze practical acred. good ness. everybody had their teeth chattering. my heart was aat my mouth man. and could hear my pulse in my ears. gee.
I PASSED UNIFORM INSPECTION
I PASSED FD BRONZE THEORY
I PASSED FD BRONZE PRAC ACRED.
omg!
anyway, there are somethings li didnt write.
their just up for you to find out
or just stuck in my head, never to let them out in words. either cos im lazy to or something
XD
Tuesday, June 17, 2008, 5:49 AM
im kinda like. freaking out much more now.afew more our to june camp.
approximate ly three three more hours before it starts.
5.50 am.
5.50am now.
may everything be as it is
Monday, June 16, 2008, 8:36 PM
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!my blogs in a mess and i cant do anything now cos im all freaked!
for camp! june camp! OMG!
i think its rather unnessasary for me to freak.
but thinking about how scary it is. may be i do have a bit of licence to be freaking.
and feeling very afraid
i must have gone nuts
upon packing my stuff and checking.
i couldnt find my FA book for like afew times and my socks.
i found them, then i put them some where for the time being then i lost them again.
awfull...... i was so tempted to scream "*&()*^*&%&^$%^#$#%$%^%"
obviously i didnt .
and my mum said she saw me taking my FA book aafter she told me it was at my desk.
she saw me taking it. but i totally couldnt remember myself even walking to my desk.
im becoming a mental looney.
Standardisation camp was cool.
my rc angel replied me. =)
i love my group! haha!
theres gonna be lots of fire drills! super cool . after june camp we''ll all be considered as sec twos
nice huh.
lvl mates! we gotta work real harder! =) we''ll get thru Footdrill bronze!
we will! theory and prac will be great! haha.
and so will first aid! haha! remember how head to toe survey! =)
ooh- my - gosh.
TMR IS JUNE CAMP!
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
sorry.
gtg study now.
i better do well.
or i wont live to see day break again.
i just wanna say this first
byebye world"
Sunday, June 15, 2008, 8:42 PM
Q1: Do you like your present school?haha! yes!
Q2: What do you want the most now?
pass all my upcoming tests
Q3: Who is the closest person to you in your schoool?
im not gonna ask this question. its plain favourism man! XD
and i will get into trouble if i answer too anyway. with only ONE name.
Q4: Do you hate your friends sometimes?
sometimes. if they are unreasonable freaks.
Q5: Are you afraid of death?
no. but i wont jump off something or cut myself just to die cos im afraid of heights and pain. =)
Q6: What is your goal for this year?
stop that bickering.
Q7: Do you believe in love at first sight?
no. you can get like a feeling of "oh thats gonna be my crush" but if youre talking about love.
nno.
Q8: Do you believe in eternal love?
hm... yeah.
Q9: Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she wants to commit suicide?
no.
Q10: What do you enjoy doing the most?
being nice and not mean
Q11: Have you ever done anything for your admirer?
no. like whos gonna admire me . HAH.
Q12: What feeling do you hate the most?
vengeance, hate and anger
Q13: Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes. of course. hey aint this question stupid and redundunt.
Q14: Who would you probably spend the rest of your life with?
how would i know. prbably alone. im kidding. i dk
Q15: What do you think is the most important thing is your life?
everything
16: Do you find life meaningless?
if so im probably down in the dumps. its only meaning less if you make it to be .
Q17: Who do you love most?
everyone. favourism
Q18: Who do you talk most to in school?
favourism again. everyone
Q19: What are you listening to now?
flipside. by click five.
Q20: 8 people to do this quiz :
like why do you have to restrict it to 8?
thats so mean.
anyone can do this quiz =)
6:43 PM
hurrh. IM BACK! =)it was a real nice break. =)
so today
was the day,
i could have gotten a heart. attack.
what does
1434 mean
one die. three die.
that was our room no. =\ creep. and yes. on the last day, creepy and upsetting stuff happened.
off al things! AH!
we got out of our room. double locking the main front door, going into my mums room thru a connecting door, getting out from my moms room. -.-
we DOUBLE BOLTED OUR ROOM DOOR. DOUBLE.
so after breakfast we tried getting in. and holy crap.
we couldnt. because we double locked our main door, .
fine. so we went into our mums room seeing if we could get into our room.
it was utterly impossible.
i was starting to get a hard attack. i was like wondering
"MY STUFF! MY STUFF IN THAT ROOM!
that a thought struck me.
"MY FIRST AID BOOK AND my notes ARE IN THAT ROOM! IN THE STINKY SAFE!"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
sp muh dad called the people to open the door.
i thought they had to bang the door down or something.
so when they came and all
i just kept my head under the blankie of the side of the bed.
okay. yeah. they pried open the door. no hammering. no whatever.
no banging down the door.
i wasn't taking any chances so i packed up my stuff and wanted to shift them to my mums room but my dad was like saying i shouldn't panic and it wasnt gonna happen again. <;/
i was thinking of puttin gup some pics. but you know. i might not =D
Wednesday, June 11, 2008, 8:53 PM
history repeats itself. who was i to kid.is this some kind of practical joke
nah. pinch youreself. youre alive. living and feeling it.
can it just stay. just for this while please
and so what. it will happen sooner or later
and have i sinned?
no.
but did you sin when those happened.
no
must i continue?
4:46 PM
we went to watch kungfu panda=) poh is so cute. with his fat! =D
this is the best animated film i've ever watched
i was just totally glued to the show. =)
after watching it
we went to eat thai food
and it was so hilarious
i was drinking tom yum
and it was suppose to be hot
daddee ; me : woah. jiejie good ah
me ; daddee : stares at him, then drinks the soup again*
sister squrms in her seat
daddee;Sam : why you drink untill like that!
SAM;DADDEE : HOT
Me;Sam : you know whats the trick. is to stay calm and be at peace. and stop squrming.
sister keeps chanting "inner peace". over and over.
=\ face it mei, you wont beat me.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008, 9:23 PM
i like tissue paper.the more i pull them out.
the emptier the tissue box is.
and now my knee hurts.
i did 60 sit ups! yay! =)
noow my stomach hurts.
i wish for it too.
i hope so
but its not that easy.
we cant just wish them away.
Monday, June 09, 2008, 11:09 PM
actually the slapping technique is not bad.marsya was thinking that if the foriegn girl pisses her off again she wont hesitate.
funny. i can almost ima gine.
写华文，可以读吧？！
你可以哭，我不会说什么。
骂吧。我会听。
跟大家讲，大声地喊。
我做了呢么多，直值得你和别人的丑话。
如果，你不给我一个完整的答案，我不会知道我应该做什么。
所以，你不要丢下我，一句话也不说，告诉我，
我是不是应该比罪，什么也不做，
还是坐我自己，记述帮大家。
我不是弱者
你在演习让大家看以为你是受害者吗？
快点回答这个问题。
10:59 PM
290 posts since when? hehe.this will be the 291th one.
=)
this will be a proper blog post.
today we had poc practise for unit song
it was awesome.
the song that the sec threes chose was superb.
we were seperated out into the lower and high grups.
i was in the high one.
so the sec threes scrambled to harmonize us.
i think we did great for a start=D
i admire youre daring courage dione =]
something about faeqa telling deborah ,daring her to slap her
than dione just reached her hand out and slapped faeqa just like that.
im like omg;O
haha. gosh. it just went slap*
haha. so funny.
sec threes were like "no fighting". hehe.
imlike 80 percent done with the report.
oh am i glad.
oi.
life is unfair
and i didnt say it was fair
but
why people can get what they want
and
i cant.
not just superficial stuff
i mean deep thhings.
how come,
others can have what they want and i cant?
8:08 PM
=/ this blog skin is so brownand. sad
and that makes me, sad?
i changed my skin twice.
and if i change it again im switching back to green alien. =D
oh. what can i say?
i can only wait. and wait and wait.
what do you propose i do?
i need great minds
wise words
magic hands
and the help of god
Sunday, June 08, 2008, 11:32 PM
who likes the new skin.to me it looks so bimbo.
=/ and its so pink.
and the words that are at the left panel are so...
sad.
7:17 PM
omg. my aunt just left.=/
does the rain dance*
the chronicles of narnia is superb.
georgia henley is super cute.
william is darn hot
Anna is gorgeous
edward is cool
but too bad the next show that'll come up will only have georgia and edward. =/
So. miley cyruss' song "See you again" sounds nice.
i dont like miley.
well thats when i THOUGHT.
well i just like her songs.
=D
im going to make vid s again.
gues whos pictures im gonna put =D
Saturday, June 07, 2008, 10:51 PM
hah. i wish i could say some nice words.i just cant think of them.
9:50 PM
ohmymymymymymymymymymymy.how can i possibly describe how i feel right now.
im so fried.
there. one word.
its so hot nowadays. whats happenin to the world?
=/ i feel so awfullll.
listening to jason marz is just like pure summer.
with a mug of booze ~ hah. like i cant drink yet.
and besides. i dont like booze. it smeels. smells*
headache ah. why am i not smart. if i can just open up my books and memorise everything in 5 re-reads. if only i were that super. smart.
okay. you know what. i DO have a splitting head ache. i really do. not kidding.
12:18 AM
This entrie. is for my dear buddies. =D you guys rock man. sheds a tear* sniff.
dear esther.
this post is dedicated to you.
you better appreciate it cos it takes up
1/100 % of my blog. and that alot.XD
i thank you
remember those awful fights.
those eye teary ones.
that phone call screams.
and msn curses.
it was so fun.
and i'tll forever be that fun.
shes gone.
we'ved moved on.
but we are still intact.
after so much.
and its all on how much we've been glued
we did say.
we didnt want to continue.
but.
who said not.
who said cant
with no words we were calling each other
the way we used to.
i'll never forget our BFF thing
its so
old
childish
but...
it never seems to allow each of our minds
to run a long scape of memories.
many of them were rotton and bad.
but we always learn from it dont we? =]
1260 days.
i've known you.
=D my bestie.
who says i cant be childish? XD
Dear Bev
i'll calll you that. since you like it that way
Man why , just why.
are you so awfully innocent.
in so many ways.
i cant bear to bully you .
wait. do i?
not that bad right.
more like im always standing up for you [you better say yes]
but it is true.
you did say i was like your mum
gee you make me feel so old.
but im glad you said so.
i thought you were once a great meanie.
and you know what i mean
but i realised you were
a victim of many cases
which left me very stupified.
our friendship
is some how very surprisingly
wierd.
its so .... classic.
one of a kind.
i dont have to say you'll be my best frend.
oh we just found those words.
with probably no help.
Dear ru ying
i hate you.
i hate you so much
i hate hate hate you.
so bad
i love you at the same time.
i love you so much
so greatly much.
why do you make me so undecided!
i hate it when im fickle.
well. you've been a heck of a great buddy
all those stuff i couldnt tell anyone to,
were just poured to you
and you accepted it readily.
thanks man.
um. i gues one day.
just one day.....
i BET I"LL BEAT YOOU IN MY COLLECTION OF MERCHANDISE ON WUZUN.HHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHAH.
=.= im kidding.
have fun with guides.
i so enjoy your laugh
even if i fail a test i have to laugh at the sound of your thrilling bell.
=/ you perk the worst me .
ILY.
dear, marysa, nadira.
you guys are like my damn precious ***s
um . you know what im talking about.
red cross has been my crutch.
i seem to only want to come to school
only to await.
us anxiously waiting for any sign of our "so we think she is our" angel
and just to see a letter pinned up on the board for anyone of us.
you cheer me up when im flattened.
you fill me when im down to the core.
we will stay together.
and for a really long time. and i mean it.
dear, aisyah, maryam ,diyana
my good ***s
that kfc lunch was a great one
you guys are great ONES too.
to great.
like. this is awfully wierd.
i dont know how to put it but.
ahhhhhh.
anyway.
you guys are great buddies.
and stay that way.
dont change.
youre on my list.
=]
to my
angel
red cross angel
special wardy
red cross ward
thankyou. alot.
you guys just totally complete my life
and make it seem easier for me
writing to you guys is fantastic
=]
a good friend. is a good bra.
because it pushes you up. '' quote
and so i end
12:08 AM
Today i went to back to the old house with gran ma with that little pesty.eek.
to give that house a clean wash.
and man was it a clean one.
wait. what i meant is after we CLEANED it. it was clean.
before it was as filthy as a pigsty. oh my gosh .
all those grime filled moss stuck walls
and that leave littered, dirt black floors.
=/ Since when did it get a clean. a total wash.
we practically scrubbed every thing that we saw. haaahhh,
i was scrubbing with my brroom real hard. serious. and it was great satisfaction to see that dirt come off and leave a clean surface. i was so pissed with those awful red ants i was so tempted to give them my kind of tsunami. >=/ they were so irritating. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
and i hate. hat. hat. HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ants.
i saw gladys and her buddies in clementi hawker centre.
harhar. dear gladys. you said my name so loudly. =]
i think it was the whole grup of basket ball girls sec ones. =D
im thinking of changing my blog skin.
those who agree. say "I"
Thursday, June 05, 2008, 10:01 PM
Sigh. no one will believe what i say. no one. no one.... sob.SO. -purlease. im not goonna type whats for hw okay. >=/-
Quizzy xd
7 things or people that you love
Family
Redcross
Ma'ams
Friends
RCFriends
Seniors
Bed
7 things that will win youre heart
ive only got one.
thats if my other partner jumps into the pool to save me when he himself cant swim. =D
im kiddding. im not old enuf yet. XD
7 things i believe in
God
Teevee
Lvl mates
Integrity before friendship
Passing footdrill
Getting over this actually-so-no-needed crisis
my talent. [[this talent thing...actually im just talking bull. XD]
7 things im afraid of
Lose all my self esteem [this will never happen but im still afraid]
heights
Anything not human and moves.
Betrayal
lose the people i love most and thats including my friends
computers that hang on me [DANG IT]
we fail to be the best squad ever. [i have hope. and i believe we wont]
7 things i want now
Cabal never to hang
All the sims collections
Warcraft 4 <--- this is impossible
battle ruth on DOTA. <--- i actually dont dare
Dont want POC so soon
scold ostritch
sing
7 things i do everyday
scold ostritch in my head
continue thi s quiz later
Wednesday, June 04, 2008, 12:42 PM
In any case, heeh, no one is really gonna listen to what you say yeah.you can show me a knife and cover it in blood
but i wont flinge a bit.
ooh. im so afraid. im tearing in fear.
yeah right. who in the world am i gonna kid.
That talk , was so out. AHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAH.
my ears were just so closed man.
I was like
"UH. does any one understand what the foreigner is saying? we dont seeem to be fluent in her language. It doesnt make sense. maybe it was french, italian or even spanish"
oh. especially those parts where it really didnt make sense like
"Amanda @#$%$# $#@%#^%^%$&^*$%^&$%$"
I had no idea. =/ sad huh.
I wonder how she knew my name. heeh.
oh. i couldnt be bothered. i was just looking around, absorbing in the atmosphere and looking at thsoe shops, and i see marsya and nadira and zi wei painfully standing there.
HAHHA. funnny lah. oh i saw someone wearing this awfully nice shoe, it was black and with bling on it. abit of that splash of maroon red.
ANyway as i was saying. so yeah. it took like 15 min. But it was all veery funny. laughing in my head had some blasted effect that somehow turned out to be echoing laughters. sheesh. heeh.
I suddenly had this flashback of eating that friedchicken in KFC. it was delish. that zinger. ROARXD im gonna be back for you and i'll come back with my buddies.
So i wonder. Marsya says theres gonna be a part two.
Yawn. I wonder when.
Im already starting to get bored with this whole thing.
Like, do i care? nah.
right now is im freaking out with all that hw. i havent even start. some one scream for me. i've screamed enuf from last nights dream. The report we have to write for english is fun. It brings out creativity and its quite fun to do. =/ hmph. i'lll be busy the whole night. and thats if i stay intact with it
UGH. so much hw. so much hw. but it seems real nice to do.
Bear in mind :
Retribution may seek youre way as it will sense the level of youre innocence.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008, 7:46 PM
This is the stuff that i gathered today.A train is a peaceful place. It is easy to keep quiet.
what else can one say when what she hears is indeed what she hears?
Can she do anything? Can she fight back?
and the only way is to keep quiet and silently do what she is doing.
She knows that people were staring, but did she care? no.
She knows that people were staring in sympathy but did she stop? no.
because she knew that if one hadd to do so , one had to. To feel better.
To feel bettter because the things that she did were deemed wrong.
And can she make them right? will anyone listen?
To help was asking for big trouble.
To help as much as she could to her most extent was even worse.
Now she has to take in the after effects of her doings
Even the train agrees in silence
Even the people, so innocent agree in unison
When the train goes by stop to sstop
each clear drop flows like the hyped rivers
but her reflection shows nothing
And she knows the people are staring.
especially the one at the corner with the MP3 player
she stares and stares.
but can she stop the rivers from flowing the way they are?
Can she stop the way the clear drops trickle like how the rain fall?
uncontrollably.
Can she say "no i didnt do that" to those that think she did.
can she raise her hand and say "stop. its enuf"
Will any one believe? will anyone trust. will anyone know.
did anyone appreciate?
im sorry
okay, i am a ******* ***** like you said i was. okay,
you dont like me. okay okay. okay.
okay if i am overpowering, that means i shud not do anything,
okay. forget my past mistakes. or you can choose to hold that grudge.
i dont blame you. i guess i was silly. thankyou for pointing out my mistakes
Monday, June 02, 2008, 9:33 PM
HAHA. hello=]Today was cool. except when the ostrich os-che-riched. XD lame but true.
some thing smelled today. when i went to the piano. getIT.
HAHHHAHAHAHHHHAHAAHAHHHA. it aint anybetter for me. heyy. loook this way. pity me first. =[
marsya was so farr - ney. we went to get chips from the vending machine. then she actually wanted the sour-cream which was to press "E3" then she couldnt get it out. and secretly in my head i wanted the sourcream..... hurhur..so she got the original instead...THEN I GOT THE SOURCREAM OUT>>>>>>> then HAHAHAHAHAH. i still love you marsya. and i'll share wit you everything i have =] then this grup of girls came and they were like "eh. no more sourcream." i was telling marsya cos i was buying drink "hidehidehide!". XD anyway now point. the girl saw that i took the last one. XD awww she smirked at me. tsk! =]
THankyou esther au for the beautiful very nicely decorated envelope! and contents. very heart melting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahh. we shall write to each other. =] thanks for cheering me up! =]
Thankyou amirina=] for the post card
Im such a goon. i thought i wouldnt live another day to type out the days events cos i was so afraid of not being able to make it home. tell you a stupid thing i did which every goon, or perhaps me, [because im a idiot] would do.
I wasnt sure to go down to the ground floor so that i could get to the lrt station. so my body was going left right left right then i decided to go down. [but that was wrong] people kept looking at me when i went left right left right. i must have looked incredibly stupid. then i was like.... UH this is totally wrong. utterly wrong. then i lookked forward...there was a stinky LRT sign that was pointing to steps that was leading to where i came down from except further away =.= so i went up again. i must have looked silly. tsktsk. yeah okay, if i didnt manage to get home i wont be blogging. haha. tmr is sana course! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. haha.