If you're not the one.
Profile

tree polaroid

Amanda

5SY/6SY 1PR 2PR
RedCross ;]
Gaming ;D
WT Practioner :d
Elf! :D

Maybe someday I'll hit someone to my hearts content ;)

HeadBanging


Tag

Links

Layout: vehemency
Icon: reruntherace

SENIOR.Rachel Ma'am
SENIOR.Azidah Ma'am
SENIOR.Pearlyn Ma'am
SENIOR.Pei Wen Ma'am
SENIOR.Sarah Cheong Ma'am
SENIOR.Sarah Tan Ma'am
SENIOR.Shafwaty Ma'am
SENIOR.Victoria Ma'am
SENIOR.Wenqian
SENIOR.Ruth
SENIOR.Carolyn
SENIOR.Deborah
SENIOR.Dione
SENIOR.Faeqa
SENIOR.Isabel
SENIOR.JiaPing
SENIOR.SitiSarah
SENIOR.Gilda ma'am
SENIOR.JingRui ma'am
SENIOR.Michelle ma'am
SENIOR.WaiLam ma'am
SENIOR.YanBing ma'am
SENIOR.ZiYing ma'am

Red Cross LevelMaties .
Memek
Amanda.K
DeeDee
lala
Ruiii
Mar-sheep
Poh
Piramol

SCRCY SecOnes2009 .
Alyssa
Chen Yee
Kimberly
Miselle
Nicolette
Xuan Yi

Friends .
R O S A
E S T H E R

T R A C Y
M E G A N
R U Y I N G
L I M I N
A D I L A
C L A R I S S A
S A N D R A
R A C H E L
E L L A
I X O R A
G A B B Y
J I N G W E N
K A R U N A
E S T E L L E
L I S A
J O L Y N
E R I N
P E A R L
Monday, July 28, 2008, 8:28 PM

我不知道我因该说些什么.

也许我不应该信任你。
为什么我呢么笨，当你的好朋友，帮你解决难题。
我不知道我做错了什么。我想我也不会找你的原应。
应为我知道了有什么用？
时，你肯定是再说我写的字很无聊，但是我还要谢你，没把sms简讯除掉。
thankgod i found out earlier.

thank
you.

nicht im nicht zufriedener mit ihr. IM zufriedener mit Ihnen




Sunday, July 27, 2008, 9:42 PM

and who said things wont change for the better?




Saturday, July 26, 2008, 8:20 PM

Today was superrrrr.
beach cleaning is nice .. in the morning! and tiring but it was fun!
first i sat on the bus and i was like..
"gee its cold"
and in a flash this blue jacket brushed past me and i look up and i see faeqa's stern face.
"wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww."
now that shows either i sat in a very slouched position thats why immediately i look up i
see faeqa or im seriously short.
and she walks in and is opposite me leaning on the window.
and it takes her afew seconds to see im opposite her. O.O
too coinsidental if i throw in this part that i saw shermaine yesterday in the mall.
gaaaaaah=)

I sat with marsya in the bus. and faeqa and ami led us through some cheers.
The cheer was awfully LONG! and theres one about bananas.
either i could have died from gasping from breath or i could have died laughing.
We reached there and started off with PT. great work out!
i was put into the group with michelle ma'am, ami, minh trang ma'am and leerui.

Me and Charlotte made this pop out thing saying "i love you!" on the sand..
it makes me happy.
cos its just so simple when you look at it.
it just seems like its those few words we wanna say. on sand.
next time we go for a level outing ....
WE'are havin a picnic at east coast on a saturday morning and make sand castles and words!
i demand it! XD

faeqa and ami wanted to destroy it. but me , charlotte and amandaloh and nurul i think, helped to make another thing for ami to destroy in the end we made her name. =)
we wanted to spell it all about but it was too late so we sticked to "ami".
haha! faeqa could destroy it cos ami didnt allow her to!

all in all we did
- helped to clean up the environement
- have fun
- discover GREAT MOULDING SKILLS
- have a great relationship with FFMS red cross

=) we played with them and it was fun! i couldnt have posssssibly felt happier.

i suddenly love the rubicks cube.




Friday, July 25, 2008, 9:24 PM

So many things happening. My head flies out of place. And some say life's a rainbow.
too bad we dont have the powers at the tip of our fingers.
to wind back time and change the past.
then the present wont be so painful
the future wont be feared.

Im planning the next firedrill =) watch out. everyone better come.

today we did footdrill in the gallery.
boy was it fun. half way aparna joined in!


oh it was just fun.

only for a while..

then the bridge broke.
but it broke long ago.




Wednesday, July 23, 2008, 4:04 PM

Just another ordinary day.
filled in a dramatic way.

Hey... zahrah likes gay men.

i never knew that!
Gee.....

mrs fern! mrs fern!
that was random but..... =D

gahhhhhhhh i missed my fake firedrill but i guess its ok.
im planning for the 4th!




Tuesday, July 22, 2008, 8:27 PM

ah.
what is there to write about.
my face burns. yeah thats something to write about.




Saturday, July 19, 2008, 9:18 PM

im getting a headache from seeing bright light beaming from the pure white screen of the com while i painfully type this post out.

ouch.

i keeep listening to misery business and my ear drums are falling out.
but its so up beat it makes me feel high.




Friday, July 18, 2008, 4:14 PM

in the com lab now =)

im so alone! no one's in school.
at least none of my level mates or class mates are in school=(
no matter. i got the com=D
I had to pass up the poem to mrs fern today. sheeeeesh! i hope its okay. i pray there is at least one literary device in there! cos i just made it up without bearing in mind that i needed at least three or two literary devices. easier that way actually . During recess today we had this "fake firedrill" . me, diyana, nadira, marsya, charlotte, maryam, amanda koh, amanda loh and aisyah were in the gallery. charlotte , marsya and nadira were the casualties. the rest of us were aiders.
=.=" i better brush up on my EVAC AND FA skills. darn! i was half way panicking when i forgot how to overturn marsya ! instead of marsya wailing I was the one wailing towards maryam . she was handling charlotte. so yeah i did a swap with maryam. i treated charlotte . she had bleedinpalm and something else and suddenly everything do finish everything all done she tell me got SHOCK. CHARLOTTTEEEEEEEEEEE. there were no syptoms of shock right???! and you felt weak! you could have been an old lady!

sob*

today we had art and we had to choose to be either draw the style of kadinsky or miro.
and between geometrical shapes and organic
i chose kadinsky and geometrical

so yeah we had to think up of a song and "depict" it out on drawing using geo shapes.
i chose the song "say goodbye" and drew it out.
but mr razak depicted it differently and changed 1/4 of it.
thank goodness he didnt change everything cos thats what he did for some others.
but immediately when he saw my picture he was like

"huh huh! what this! huh!?"

it was a freiggin dog bone i drew when im not suppose to. he said no shapes that represent anything.

i was like

"sorrysorrysorryyy!" and erased it instantly,
=/
i hate doggie bones.




Wednesday, July 16, 2008, 9:11 PM

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, to take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt, so much

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities...Well I was wrong

-paramore, thats what you get




Tuesday, July 15, 2008, 8:25 PM

i feel like a freak




7:44 PM

i stepped into the house and i screamed in my head

"are we vegetarians?!"
the whole table was
"vege flooded" eaccccck.

today during math vicky was talking about takafumi.
again!
Today was pearlyn ma'ams birthday! happy birthday ma'am! we had a celebration
in the gallery and there was cake! the ma'ams made pearlynma'am eat rice, they brought the
bowl and 2 pairs of chopsticks . pearlyn ma'am chose the cuter one. =)
then beneath the bowl of rice there was a ring!
the big board that the ma'ams gave pearlyn ma'am was very really prettily decorated.
so heart warming.

me and marsya stayed back to print the stuff out!
and i didnt realise queen victoria was enormous.
pardon me please! (royal family)
but she was big. whatever it is i like reading about the royal families.
its so interesting and they can be filled with deep and dark secrets..... UNCOVERED.
and princess diana is pretty!
by the way the library com is complicated.
it takes kinda long to print out the papers.
and we are doing it again! there goes the long wait by the printer
but im glad i waited cos i found this cool mag.
2 actually, filled with lotsa crafts stuff. =) time for a trip to the crafts shop with marsya!

i talked to qian yi ma'am too after school!

oh yes... very perfect.
oh no.... not so
its a day of ditching
it was.
it will forever be;;




Monday, July 14, 2008, 2:31 PM

oh my gosh.
liike every one is round your finger.
whirling round and round.
but i think soon you''lll have no finger!

muahahahahahahahaha!
that is so cool.




Sunday, July 13, 2008, 6:33 PM

having a headache
cs
and
feelinng lethargic
does not make me feel happy
excited or
whatsoever.

>=/
and it makes me talk rubbish to pple.
which makes me feel bad.
and it makes me feel bad cos pple hate it.
and when they hate it they dont like me!

and so much for saying that i talk rubbish
when i actually type rubbish now.




Saturday, July 12, 2008, 9:06 PM

BOOM

happy birthday to me angel and beverly

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

BOOM. happy 16 and 13

while im still a 12




8:54 PM

I know and i understand how you feel

but these are things that we probably cant change,
or it'll take alot to change it.

too bad they're out to make our lives crumple.
but know that i've got your back.
and i hope you got mine.

But its things that we have to get over.
we can do it.
they can do what they want,
but we cant let them have their way..




Friday, July 11, 2008, 9:08 PM

gosh. this is so complicated.
i feel so scared now and i dont know why.
=/ maybe cos im watching ghost whisperer soon?
i dont know. i dont think so.
i dont freak when i watch ghosts stuff.

gosh, my eyebrows twitching. and something is happening

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time There's no use looking back or wondering How it could be now or neither been All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go I never had a dream come true Till that day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say You're the one I think about each day And I know no matter where love takes me to A part of me will always be with you

- S Club 7, Never had a dream come true




Thursday, July 10, 2008, 11:32 AM

This i s crazy!!!!!!!

today is slack day! CS. takes up two periods!
haha!

my fave poem from edgar allen poe, hear it is

http://www.houseofusher.net/raven.html

yup, i cant post the poem cos its wayyy to long. and i like the
one by billy collins, the dead",

http://youtube.com/watch?v=iuTNdHadwbk

this is the animated vid. its spooky but deep (cheem) and cool
O.O wow, not a very complicated way of describing a poem O.O
Im listening to the song again/
not a very good thing. no.

Today we h have red cross.
Our new ncos are takin over.

ruying says that i always sing whenever i sit next to her during cs
ruying says that its not that irritating but its irritating.
???????
=D nevertheless im gonnn amake your head explode with my singing!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

and she just saw what im writing and goes whatever...
>=D




Tuesday, July 08, 2008, 9:38 PM

The day started off, the same as it always has .

I mean this is interesting.
Having very intensive and complicated lang arts lessons can whirl your head.
and make you write when you are half awake. I mean trying to keep awake.

"It is the marvel of the human feelings that leaves us to wonder. Is friendship a dead thing that
you can throw when you want to. Is it just so simple and easy. Why own for your desire. Yes indeed there is no rule stating that " OB. is not allowed".
But to the very extreme of " OB. is allowed to the extent of kicking aside other friendships"
Too bad that this world is filled with imperfections that no one can change.
Why fight a battle when she has no desire for a bloody massacre.
Why wager a war when your friend here wants none.
Is this what you call "tough competition"?
All she wants and wishes for is nothing of this, but to only talk to you as a friend =)
sad that you prefer otherwise and she can't do anything about it.
because it is you, you want it. you can only be the one to stop yourself."

wow. believe it or not, after i hit the last word i fell asleep with my eyes open in the canteen! =D
although i know that whole passage does not make sense, i can only assure my self that i can write pure rubbish =)

too bad when something has a start, it always has a end.
and when it starts its always is exhilirating.
but when it has to end you try to refrain from feeling sad.
but the only thing you can do is to assure yourself that...
"damn its life".

and just feel happy about it! except that it isnt a very nice thing to be happy about but i mean, make the best out of it man! it'll soon pass... and perhaps it'll be good. it'll be good...

and you can try to mend it but they wont give you a chance =}




Monday, July 07, 2008, 9:35 PM

gosh pple. the last post was meant to be like that!
LOL.
this is hilarious!




Sunday, July 06, 2008, 8:40 PM

In the years to comeWill you think about these moments that we sharedIn THE years to comeAre you gonna think it overAnd how we lived each day with no regretsNothing lasts forever though we want it toThe road ahead holds different dreams for me and youSometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destinySometimes goodbye, though it hurts,is the only way now for you and meThough it's the hardest thing to sayI'll miss your love in every waySo say goodbyeBut don't you cry'CAUSE true love never diesIn a year from nowMaybe there'll be thing we'll wish we'd never saidIn a year from nowMaybe we'll see each otherStanding on the same street corner though it rainsEach and every end is always written in the starsIf only I could stop the worldI'd make this lastSometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destinySometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts,is the only way now for you and meThough it's the hardest thing to sayI'll miss your love in every waySo say goodbye (so say goodbye)But don't you cry'CAUSE true love never diesAnd when you need my arms to run intoI'll comfort youNothing will ever change the way I feelSometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destinySometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts,is the only way now for you and meThough it's the hardest thing to sayI'll miss your love in every daySo say goodbyeBut don't you cryBecause a true love never dies




5:54 PM

im listening to sneakernight by vannessa.
=/ who thinks its nice?

i havent blogged for a longlonglong time.
friday was poc dinner.
it feels like it was just ytd.
i got so many photos to put up but i dont want to . not just yet...
cos i got something up my sleeve....




Thursday, July 03, 2008, 9:40 PM

Kill everything.
Kill everything single thing.

-2nd july 2008-
Me and marsya were walking.
marsya "This place feels like narnia."
me"yeah... look at the place."
marysa "all the trees look as if they are all lined up, a passage way for us to walk thru"
me"its so peaceful"

I know i felt like i was at peace with the world.
My heart was heavy and i felt it.
But on the outside i was just enjoying everymoment of it, walking through that magical path.

We were in the amphi.
stressing about something
marsya" should we do it. no more time"
me " i think we should"
marsya "gosh"
BOOF. this strong wind blew from behind us and out hair covered our faces totally.
me "that is god telling you to do it"
marsya" lets do it!, i'll go home now and do it! so muchtime was lost"

I can wait. But time cant wait for me.

-3rd july, POC-

If there was never something called POC.
wouldnt that be a perfect thing.

Poc started of like any other day in red cross.
all the uniform checking, and all.
frantic bottle check.

frantic here, there, everywhere.
but thats part of a cadets life. cherish everymoment of panicking.
(its a beautiful thing)

after the changing parade.
We had to prepare for POC.
it was a L----- N-------
majority of the standard was like chicks just broken out of a shell.
yeah. we did the item.

but all that is not iimportant.

The important thing is.
When the sec twos and threes were doing theyre item,
they were singing, with love.
theyre voices seemed to have words in them, spilling out each tune.

I sat with aisyah when we did the unit song.
we all started sobbing.
and i held aisyah's hand.
These six months made me realise that, our love as levelmates was deeper then i thought.
she started crying really hard.
and i couldnt control it either.
no one could.

If only i could put out my hand in the "stop" sign.
and confront the time keeper.
and fight till the very end to make time stop.
and the expected to never happen.
i will run away and hide.
but time will freeze. and hold.
and i will find a way to turn back those minutes.

even after all those tears.
i can feel more coming.
but they are weighed with
sadness
regret
and
disappointment




Tuesday, July 01, 2008, 9:31 PM

I have dead lines.
i have dead lines
i have dead lines.

and i've not cleared them!

schoool was okay =)
it was so funny in class with marysa and nadira.
the picture of -- on the board
nadira dramatic reminising
marsya's hyrestical laugh
and i could only stare and wonder
"amanda, aren't you lucky."

=( beverly is sad.
and she's going thru the same thing that happened to me
it hurts. i know.
but you'll be okay!
i'll always be behind you!
=)

Listening to burnin' up by jonas brothers makes me happy.
listening to afterlife makes me high
singing our medley makes me tear.

so many emotions
I saw it in your eyes.Your hatred, ready to kill. do you not know there is no ownage. take a step back. take a hundred steps back. You have crossed the borderline. i am still at my starting. You are are far beyond the end. I have stayed put. when you do so. i can only stare. when you say in rejection, i wrinkle my nose in disgust. i never knew there were people in this world. too overwhelmed. i know your stubborness. and i wont say much. but listen to me, its just too much.

you disgust me.