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Thursday, October 30, 2008, 8:52 PM

i feel happy.
and pissed.

happy because i went out today and i got a merit for my marshall cavendish script =)
10 outof 1400 scripts. and im one of the ten. it really made my day.
pisssed because we both live in two different worlds.
literally. okay maybenot the world part

and i

this post was due half an hour ago.

but now im in no mood to write anything.




Wednesday, October 29, 2008, 9:44 PM

video

oh my shit im so happy.
I FINALLY SAW IT. wuhhohhhhh!
not really of good quality but still! better then nothing!
thanks piramol!




10:26 AM

i dont know why i cant sleep anymore.
i wake up early but i sleep late.
and when i sleep late i cant sleep, actually if i sleep early i cant sleep too.
D=

going out with amanda tmr.
perhaps then there'll be much more to write.
and pictures to post!




Tuesday, October 28, 2008, 12:42 PM

WHY AM I STONING.




Monday, October 27, 2008, 8:45 PM

Breezes calmly, blow through autumn leaves
Summer's warmth no longer lingers
the noisy Trees quarrel with frustration
to whom shall house the squirrel's nuts

The poise of the winds that sweep past the forest
moves like a damsel's wavering dress
And the cold wet drops now fall from the sky
will beat down on the petals of my rose




8:16 PM

I dont know what im doing at home.
really. xbox really doesnt seem very exciting.
and if i dont have anything to do that means i cant write anything.
so i'll start writing nonsense. =) bear with me.
not that i even think anyone will read this =D
haha, happy birthday wenqian =D

i shall talk about what's infront of me
Im looking at my calendar that i had since i dont know when.
that has a bible verse. everyday i tell myself that i'll flip the page to read the verse of the day.
and i wont flip to see the next day's one because it's so tempting.
And now it says

The Lord your God is holding your hand. And he says "dont be afraid. i will help you."
ISAIAH 41:13 PARAPHRASED

now what can i decipher from that?
and can i relate to anything thats happening now?
YES.

ANyway. to keep myself busy. i shall start writing.
so at the end of the year.
i can read everything i've written and smile to myself

"yes, you've just possibly wasted your entire hols writing rubbish"

no actually i think i got alot of work to do but i dont feel like doing it. how does that sound




Sunday, October 26, 2008, 5:49 PM

i tell you i would very much love to run out of this house and wave my hands in the air.
its like im imprisoned in this house cos i have no reason to tell my parents why i should get out of this home.
So i think someone's gotta go out with me soon . -winks- :D
Anyone??

its gonna rain soon. and i can smell rain.
and then my dad's going to tell me to study biology.
<=/

if i cant stand living here for 3 days, how am i going to live for 2 more months?




Saturday, October 25, 2008, 9:10 PM

Things i have to do or go for

1) Power Point slides for Heritage badge
2) Animal Farm Project
3) Chinese Hw
4) Commonwealth Essay
5) practice first aid for SFA next may
6) practice bronze evac
7) Prepare for some family outing thingy.
8) pick a song for talent time auditions
9) Go for the civil defense thing on the 10th of october

and if there's anything else i'll dig a hole and bury myself there.




Friday, October 24, 2008, 11:03 PM

i hate it.
Alot.
Why do humans have this mentality to classify people into the way they think they should be?
Why cant a woman go and be wild at sentosa beach?
Just cos her age doesnt really fit the place she's gonna be?
Why cant a man listen to modern music?
because he's to old and its not "his kind"
Why cant a person hang out with a friend with special need?
because others deem her as wierd

its not fair at all. not fair to those that are not like you.
i know because i've worked with them before.
And sooner or later you'll think i'm one of them.
rather predictable.




9:56 PM

omg im so irritated i could kill someone.
i mean it.
maybe i'll kill myself.
i can feel my blood pressure rising.
and im going dizzy again




Thursday, October 23, 2008, 7:46 PM

Last day in Secondary one
Last day i took the 1prudence's keys.
Its the last time but a new beginning.

To just think i'll never see the class together again.
Or step into class. Laugh with those familiar faces.
Doodle on the board. Sweep the floors. close the french doors.
Accidentally fall asleep with my eyes open during class.
analysing my dirty filthy desk.
punch beverly and ruying. actually, punch anyone.
sing like a lunatic towards jocelin.
telling jolyn to marry me.
Going high and talking in a high pitched voice.
Annoy audrey with my puppet talk.
ANd all this can only be a memory.
Everything has a ending. Anything could start.
And it happens everytime. So the only thing anyone could do
is not cry and be content i've got the memories to replay in my head.

Red cross today.
Saw ruying and bev, then they both put down their big cardboard boxes and we kinda like hugged. and so did amanda loh. no one can blame us right? the future's still unpredictable.
First. i looked like an ass eating a currypuff in the amphitheatre with all the sec fours there but mrs liow and mrs mukherji bought it for us. plus i had to eat but had no food so could i say no. /snigger/. then i gave my lvl mates choc and nadira asked for some .
THEN I POURED THE WHOLE PACK OUT. left three inside.
sheesh. so i told her to share with everyone.
then i gave the remaining three to piramol.
For first aid. MARSYA wore the latest style.
its called the scalp bandage with a pointy top.
And she really set the trend. everyone really liked it. including me.
we all wore it with pride. wailam ma'am was impressed.
XDXDXD
kidding.
anyway, so yeah, wailam ma'am was doing jaw/cheek bandage on jacq.
and jacqueline jsut kept laughin so wailam ma'am said:
btw, if you tie this bandage, its for the jaw so the person must not be able to open her mouth.
-smiles- okay?"

not funny the way i said it but it would have been in action.
then me and amanda.l thought of what we would do at yijia's house tmr.
and we thought perhaps we could practise evac or fA on her!
and when we both imagine carrying yi jia round her house with her hands in the air
we really burst out in hyrestical laughter.
anyway, we really did badly for footdrill.
we totally couldnt remember our bronze syllabus and we had to ask permission to adjust so many times. =/ we need to practise people. practise alot.
forgot to mention, bev looked kinda funny when she was like the last to run round the whole track like a loner while all her friends are infront but nvm. you try dude and thats good. keep it up friend. thanks for the letter. After that i dont know who mentioned me and mary's birthday then ruth started saying to sing a happy birthday song for us then me and mary were just staring at each other like "what jsut happened". so those who wished me happy birthday, thanks. even if it's really late it still counts =)

After rc, farisha, piramol and lee rui were like hitting each other's asses with their coke bottle.
i joined in but before i could do anything everyone jsut started hitting me. DX
so i tried my best to whack back and i had afew successful tries =D with marsya

So thats the way of how i ended the last day.




Wednesday, October 22, 2008, 9:24 PM

hm.
today was the second last day I would take 1Pr's class keys.
today was the second last day i would step into the general office in the morning for having the same reason every morning to do so.

and the list goes on.
including running up to class just to get the doors open.
okay, opening and closing doors may not be very cool or exciting but its the importance of it and who youre doing it for that really makes you pissed that you wont get to do it anymore.
its like losing someone.
im losing my role as the person incharge of 1PR's keys
im losing the freedom of when i want to get into class
im losing the friggin keys.

=(

okay, fine.
lets grasp the concept of this whole topic.
im losing my love life with 1PR's keys.
does that make things easier to understand?




Tuesday, October 21, 2008, 10:43 PM

Crush, inconsolable

I suppose im trying to kill myself with songs that really dont brighten my mood.
The years ending. again.
two years ago, i was so looking forward to primary six.
so happy that i've finally grown up, and im older. perhaps more mature
and that im a step closer to be the oldest group of students in primary.
I've learnt so much.
1 year ago, I was darn happy P6 was over and i was anticipating secondary school.
Again its like a whole cycle, but the baby batch of secondary school.
And then i'd choose my cca and start afresh.
And now. the time has swept through the year fast.
Im going to sec two?
huh? that is so wrong.
im not gonna touch this topic yet. until the year is over.
im going to just leave it alone.
switchh off this com.
its cold so im going to hug this com to sleep.
cos its warm.




7:35 PM

haha! used adobe to do up photos i found in google.
cool right! nice??
kinda sticked to a sad theme.
not that im sad.
just that its easier that way.
not bad rightttt? =D






Monday, October 20, 2008, 8:24 PM

What good reason do i have to sit infront of the computer and stone?
nothing.
why am i staring at this thing, typing this out.
dont know why.
Is time passing very slowly?
yes.
Why?
I dont know.
So what am i gonna do now?
Look at the com with half opened eye lids that are droopy and keep typing.
But type what?
Stuff that people dont read.
Why should you do that?
Because there's nothing to do.
Yes there is?
like what.




4:00 PM

okay, im writing to yi jia. =)
i dont know how youre gonna react to this but anyway im writing to her.
take that.

i cant eat properly anymore. my wisdom tooth is growing so
its gonna be so difficult to use my molars. =( and now my gum hurts.

god i pray that if i ever did anything wrong please punish me that make me
feel better after that and let me learn from my mistake.




Sunday, October 19, 2008, 8:42 PM

went to sentosa.
so if i didnt reply your message im really sorry cos my phone was dead.
and if it was urgent i will make it up to you and i promise you that.
Pass few days were energy draining, physically and mentally.
And im not elaborating much on that.
Sentosa was pretty fun.
I think if i wwere to go alone i can navigate myself quite well =)
and my arms are pink ,as in pinkpink cos i think i burnt myself by abit today under the glazing sun.
while writing something, then getting bored and getting wet by running into the waves.
i sat the skyride and luge. And we drove the luge in the rain =). literally. and i mean it
i was using my helmet to cover the heavy raindrops from entering my eyes so i could see the road and not knock into anyone. In total i rode the skyride and luge, 4 times each. 2 ytd, 2 today.
i know that today i almost flipped my luge over and landed on my right side cos i was make such and acute turn cos i was looking for my sister and looked back. i must have been nuts.
but still, i haave to care for my sister first right?
i could have broken my arm but who cares now, im fine and typing out everything right??
first time i sat the skyride i felt as though my legs were gonna drop off.
ehhem. im afraid of heights. i am. and im like so high up and i've got no seatbelt or anything, just a metal rod held inplace to make sure i dont fall forwards and something so sit on. so i can slide my body through the empty spaces and drop down so many metres below and die and never wake and no one will mourn for my death. my body splattered and mangled.
So on saturday we performed and we were awarded the most enthusiastic =)
and we were darn happy.
i'll post pictures if i remember or perhaps even bother to.

i just realised how crude i was in primary school
maybe it was the terrible environment. but still
no excuses. and i apologise if i was using words i wasnt suppose to use
but i've changed=) i dont use it so often now. and not so freely.
thanks to beverly's lectures.
and that reminds me, marilyn. i CANT OPEN YOUR FILE.
SO IF I CANT OPEN YOUR FILE AND I DONT KNOW WHAT WE"ARE DOING HOW IN THE WORLD AM I SUPPOSE TO DO THE THING HEEHHHHH??????
D=<
damn




Thursday, October 16, 2008, 7:11 PM

you know i think almost everyone in my class loves the dance.
just that on the outside we dont want to say it, cos we are embarressed.
how pathetic is that. tsktsktsk.
PR. dont deny it.
you know YOU LOVE IT. hehheh. i love it to.
like i say. doesnt matter if we dont win, we learn from our experiences.
and even if we dont win, we are champions anyway cos we bring home our unity
and the memory of us dancing together happily with so much enthusiasm.
and it may be the last time we cooperate together. cos we might part next year.
but mr jose suggested that we should go for his dance classes right? so we should try
considering okay =)

Dont give up , PR

we gotta work, work, work this out.




Wednesday, October 15, 2008, 7:24 PM

Today was fun i suppose
no wait it was really really fun. no kidding
Mr Jose was really really proud of us. and everyone was so happy.
Cos after doing our performance on stage in the khoo audi he thought it was nice.
but we still have flaws like giggling too much or when we make a mistake we make it so obvious and start covering our mouths. HAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHHA.
AND PE SAW US. >Xd darn and i couldnt watch them perform =(
he liked our performance cos he thought we kept the energy flowing and all and he could see we just enjoyed dancing on stage.

i forgot to write something yesterday.
I got up 960 and this girl boarded the bus too, and we were near the front door.
she looked out and this guy was smiling at her.
well he looked decent and abit chubby.
he said" yup, the bus is too crowded, can't board anyway..." /smiles/
she replies meekly "yes, i guess i'll take this bus first.."
then the bus driver is gonna close the door.
the guy suddenly put on a very serious and solemn face and waved slowly as the bus drove off.
and the girl stared and waved too.
its like they couldnt bear to part and the bad thing is that i think the guy saw me staring.

well i suppose life's like this.




Tuesday, October 14, 2008, 2:09 PM

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all i can do is. =.=
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its a pity, a shame, a disaster.

Perhaps, im thinking now...
that nope, it wasnt suppose to be from the start.
and its our fault that we forced it.

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Monday, October 13, 2008, 9:02 PM

haha, my birthday today.
thanks for wishing me happy birthday guys=)




Sunday, October 12, 2008, 5:55 PM

see, this is what lies will do.
look, that is what hypocrites will say
learn, never to repeat your mistakes
but i leave it to your discretion

im sorry for you.
im not sad or hurt or upset.
im crying for you.
because god said to love your brothers and sisters.
"Anyone who says, "I am in the light" but hates a brother and sister, is still in the darkness. Whoever loves a brother or sister lives in the light and will not cause anyone to stumble in his faith. But whoever hates a brother or sister is in darkness, lives in darkness. and doesn not know where to go, because the darkness has made that person blind"
god says to always love one another.
dont hate no one.
so i pity you.
and what ever you do to make me cry,
i will not worry, for if my conscience is clear,
god will watch my back.




3:18 PM

I suppose oldies will forever be the best.




Saturday, October 11, 2008, 7:57 PM

I love "My fair lady"

Its a real classic and the songs are so nice=)
I think my 3 most favourite singers/Actresses of the past is Julie Andrews, Audrey hepburn and Shirley Temple.

Today was Open house. there was so LITTLE people! and we used so much effort to do up the stuff. And seriously, so little people came. well my mum came.
This is what happened.
my mum was like at the booth before choir.
and she was staring at me, then my mouth opened cos i think i saw her. then linda saw my mum staring over here , she went up to my mum.
it was then i didnt stop her a and let her go! then when she came back,
i was like.... "linda, thats my mum"
and linda was so shocked and pissed! HAHHAHHAHHAAAHHHAHHAHAHAH
then after that my mum came and me, aisyah, wailam ma'am, danielle ma'am and linda surrounded her while she asked questions.
HAHA. funny.
then i went to my booth, hurhhurh. beverly was complaining that the basketball training was making her whole body hurt and it was hard but beverly!
DONT GIVE UP. ITS ONLY THE BEGINNING!
DO YOUR BEST NOW THAT YOURE GIVEN THIS OPPORTUNITY!
yeah, then my mum bought her lunch =)
After that i went to the geog booth.
AND LINDA YOU NAUGHTY PERSON!
she was staring at my work.
which i told her the night before. not to look at it. or i'll scream and run.
well anyway, then we talked alot and played with balloons!
anyway, i think i've got a perfect present for linda
well she had the ideas =)




Friday, October 10, 2008, 4:58 PM

yAY! even if im not particapating in the music concert im still really proud for my class! =)
theyre vid's on clarissa's blog

http://pinkcorsages.blogspot.com/




Thursday, October 09, 2008, 9:01 PM

Listen to Earlybird.

shirley temple is so cute =)
i wish i was like her, as if shes never going to be sad
forever




Wednesday, October 08, 2008, 6:39 PM

woohoo!

there's red cross tmr! finally! after a long while... its back again.
definitely looking forward to it.

but it looks like since there are no more exams.
I have to buck up on my Evac bronze practical.
Yup, we still havent had it yet.

I shall only pack my bag at nine o clock.
ANd i'll definitely put in my book. havent finished writing it. =)
And i pray it'll be an exciting day tmr then there's more to type on this blog!




1:39 PM

Honestly, keep being that way and i bet the years to come will be worse then now.
Quit being a fag will you, its so annoying.

People ask for something, and we, not being rude, give it to them
then they ask for more, like im hiding something away from them.
i used something of mine to capture that moment for you.
and if i capture it willingly for you, why would i keep it in the computer for myself?
to gaze at it?

ridicule.




Tuesday, October 07, 2008, 4:03 PM

http://www.dota-allstars.com/

this is the link for DOTA.
=) all the info is there
cool huh




Monday, October 06, 2008, 9:35 PM

I am slipping into the darkness
The pit of doom im falling in
It is a hole that can never be fixed
My eyes search for nothing

I feel no grounding beneath my feet
I am biting air with my teeth
And my adrenaline pumping higher to its max
Will burst forth in fury

So i know i shall never live
for i see no escaping light
And i breath my last fearful air
for my life is drawing tight.




9:13 PM

i take back my words.

i came in peace, but no one appreciated it.

FINE. so i shall come with dead leaves.
and present it at your doorstep HAPPY.
A DEAD LEAF OF ME.
SO EACH OF YOU CAN TAKE A PART OF ME
HOME.
and burn it to make you warm or scrape your plate.
TAKE IT. TAKE IT ALL.

I DONT WANT IT.




3:31 PM

i come in peace.

blogskin changed.

and exams over

..
..
..
=)




Friday, October 03, 2008, 10:35 PM

ugh. finally . left with the last two exams on monday.

The other day i went home alone cos my sis went home already.
Then a boy and a girl were singing "old macdonald" really loudly and i was sttaring at thm like..
O.O
then they pressed open the lift, got in and waited for me to get in . (still singing)
but i shook my head and let them went first. (still singing)
told my dad about this incident and he suggested
that i should have went in with them and joined in the fun by singing with them.
and he thinks that the first one that would run out is THEM XD
funny.

So all that studying in the library with study buddies is cool.
helped me abit =D
Californication is a very odd song.
and so is the video! but its very very addictive for me i guess.
i found this song by the Eagles "Hotel California"
Its about hell.
i was so creeped out . anyway if anyone needs help understanding the lyrics you can ask me =)
After the Exams im compiling different snippets about ghosts from sites.
and starting on my book.
Today Mrs mukherji came up to me and said if on open house i could comeback cos she wants to pin up my rock cycle poem and i would stand next to it and elaborate on it and i have two shifts.
AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i know i did stare at certain peoples work pinned up on the board outside of the spice rooms and i was thinking....
"Perhaps if im good enough and lucky someday, my work will be pinned up for others to see"
of cos i thought that would obviously never happen.
and IT HAD TO HAPPEN. with something else added on to it...like ME STANDING NEXT TO MY WORK AND ExPLANING. like what am i going to say?! what if i forget my lines
what if i bllank out. but mrs mukherji said she'd help me.

now its just all about the patience